Slip or relapse? Could you advise me?

I personally believe we all need to create our own definitions of a relapse. For me, part of my definition of a relapse is when i actively seek out and watch porn. So yes by my definition watching porn gifs is a relapse.

Just an observation, you say you did not watch it with your full attention. To me that sounds like an addict trying to justify their addiction in some way. It's like the alcoholic that says I won't drink booze anymore but light beer is okay.

 

This is all I need to know to form my opinion. It’s a reset. I say this for two reasons.

First, you may not have watched hardcore P and you may not have M’d… this time. Personal and extensive experiences from others on this forum predict you probably will cross one or both lines within 48 hours. For addicts, if you play with fire you will get burned.

Second, you have to look at first principles. Why are you quitting P? What is it doing to your body? What is it doing to your time? Softcore gifs are doing the exact same thing to you as hardcore P, the difference being only in degree. At this juncture you’re trying to convince yourself a little poison won’t harm you, and that’s not true. Poison is poison. You yourself note, you felt awful after. It’s possible you felt awful because you were afraid you’d broken a rule you arbitrarily set for yourself, but it’s also possible that you felt awful because P makes you feel awful, in the same way a bag of Doritos is delicious to eat but all the oil and processed components make you feel sick after.

Don’t stress out about it, just reset your counter and go at it again. Figure out your triggers and either avoid them, or develop strategies for surviving them. Find something better to do with your time.