So I Had Some Trouble Day 2 of my New Year's Reboot...(Slight Triggers)

I had mentioned in one of my posts that I had ended things with a girl because I didn't feel that being with her during this period of self improvement and detox was fair to her. We had been dating a couple months before that, so of course we were close. We miss each other. We had been talking for a couple days and I asked if she wanted to spend some time and just hang out over some food. No big deal.

Well, of course we couldn't keep our hands off each other and hooked up. It just...happened. I was completely present, and didn't think of porn at all during, but afterwards it felt like I had let myself down on my hard reset. Before when I was trying to banish PMO, I was still having sex, and I realized this wasn't healthy for my heavily rewired brain. Jan 1st was my 90 days of hard mode.

While I enjoyed the experience, and I care for this girl, we knew that we had to take it as a "hookup" and as a result, a reset of the counter. Unfortunate, but I'm moving on. The thing that hurts the most I guess is that I knew that I shouldn't have...but I also didn't want to hurt her feelings or make things awkward by pushing her off of me. I put someone else's feeling before my own self improvement...and I'm torn on how to feel about that. What do you guys think?