Hi guys, I have to be honest with you. I think I have a problem with a certain kind of porn that involves oversized body parts to put it in simple words. I m currently on my 14 days of abstinence from porn but I have to be honest, today I watched a little piece of a video. It is a trick that my mind uses usually to induce me to have the dopamine that I m craving. I just think: "let s pretend that is a check, let s see if there are improvements in how I react to that" I know it. But this time was different. I skipped to the arousing part (o have watched 5 seconds more or less) and I see my reaction as I was outside my body. I see myself starting to shake (not excessively, but I think is due to adrenaline release) and I was not liking that at all. It was just like I was not able to control my body anymore. I felt clearly, when I was shaking, that I was harming myself, that my brain was overreacting to something not normal, that this kind of reaction is something that humans evolved to survive. It was pure simple fear and anxiety. It was the same reaction you have after you got scary as hell. Here I realized that I was not liking it, I never liked that. My mind was trying to remind me that I have to fear this kind of shit, but instead I confuse this rush of adrenaline with something that is actually good for me. I clearly saw it is not. I close the video immediately, I took a shower and now I m here, a little bit more proud of myself, writing this. Next time you stumble across some shit like that, try to observe you, observe your reaction, observe how you feel apart from concentrating on the thing you are watching. A simple trick is to just look at a scene and then focus your attention somewhere else and observe yourself. Obviously, don t try this on purpose, but the next time it happen (and I hope it will be never) try this! And write maybe here or in another post your experience. Peace brothers, we are unite in this! Never give up!
how many days are you clean... when i felt the shaking in my legs yesterday i worked out to rave music hit a hard work out and was able to relax after words .... chennel that energy.... energy can not be created nor destroyed learn to channel it as much as possible hope that helps. it did to me.
You did the right thing,stay off porn FOR GOOD,no checks no nothing,you're lucky to be one-piece after that lol . Good luck and stay strong,and remember,relapsing is for losers!
