This is my declaration of war. I'm 27 male, been using porn since I discovered it waaay back when I was 12 or 13. I'm a super diehard Christian, and have given my whole life to living a righteous life, and doing what the Bible says. I've found deep purpose and good lifelong friends in this pursuit. That's why I'm so so terribly ashamed of my porn addiction. It's held me back and stinted my spiritual growth, and I'm not even sure how deeply I've been affected. You have to understand, Christianity is my entire entire life! I've given up so much to live for God, and when I give in to temptation it goes completely against everything I stand for, is a spit in the face to all I've given up and to all those who look to me as an example. I've tried to quit several times, but now I finally have come to the end of my ropes because I've fallen in love with a fellow Christian. She is a gorgeous, glowing, kind-hearted, genuine, wonderful person, and I hope to marry her one day. But I can't bear the idea of her dealing with my addiction! It's for her sake that I will take up this battle once and for all. (I'm crying while writing this) Somehow I've been ok with me damaging myself, but I CANNOT ask a person to marry me, and then have to tell them that they are engaged to a sex addict. I've got to overcome this before the relationship gets to that level. Time is running out! My strategy is to follow the advice of the simple youtube video entitled How To Quit Porn Forever I'm going to: 1) Know my triggers and stay away from them! In bed at night trying to sleep Alone at work after hours (I'm a web developer) See/think of arousing thing while driving See/think of arousing thing while otherwise alone 2) Seek out a replacement activity. Here's a short list - I also suffer from a mood disorder, so that's taken into consideration. I will place this list next to every area where I tend to give in. Pray immediately and intensely! Call my accountability partner Start singing a song or at least humming Go out to eat somewhere Take a walk Clean something Call a friend Call a fellow Christian and tell them that I'm fighting the fight alongside them Get in the car and start driving Smile and think "Life is good! God is good!" List all the things I'm thankful for Go running Pour out my feelings on the nofap forum Go buy something cool Visit some of my little nieces and nephews Go to the golfing range Masturbate (I'm not going to consider masturbation a loss at this point, just porn) 3) Install internet blockers on all computers and phone (done!). Use a random password generator for the admin login so I can't remember it. Write the number down and put it in a locked box at work. Store the key separate. 4) Brainwash myself about the true and vast negative effects of porn Let's do this together brothers!