I relapsed late last night and first thing this morning. Last night I was drinking with my roommates and then stayed on my phone when I went to bed. I was looking at p-subs on Twitter which led me to Google images and then a full p site. This morning I immediately went to check my phone and scrolled for far too long and went to the site again. Between a potential covid exposure, the new strain from the UK, and being away from family during the holidays, my drunk brain leaned on PMO for stress relief. On a brighter note, I made it to 21 days (my longest streak in a while). I'm going to continue the good habits I've developed and cease the bad. Here are my goals for the next week: Pack up a few boxes for my move in a few weeks Cook some healthy meals and meal prep on my weekends Continue exercising daily in some form Read (and maybe finish one of the books I'm reading) Have a strict no peeking policy on Twitter and Instagram (I've deleted both of the apps from my phone) Only check news while I'm on my lunch break at work to avoid stressing out at home Stay off phone while in my bedroom Call & check in with friends and relatives This might be the relapse I've learned the most from so far. I'm gonna focus on forgiving myself and moving forward. With a little more effort and maybe a little luck, I can make it to 30 days and beyond. Keep on.
Day 2, Youngling: I slipped up, but I'm back. I want to be serious this time and I was thinking of buying a Black Series figure for each month I go PMO free.
Today was a tough day, when you breakup with someone its always hard but the truth is you never really accept it till you see them with someone else. Then it's like an arrow through the heart. I didn't have a setback, didn't use porn or PMO or even alcohol to numb the pain like I've done in the past. I just accepted it. Mediation, journaling and going for a walk. Definitely a sour victory but it shows that I'm moving in the right direction. Still holding strong at 54 days. If she had not come into my life I don't think I would have realized the damage porn had caused my life. I would probably still be using. I miss her, she definitely left some finger prints on my heart and it will hurt for awhile. The thing is now I'm a better person working towards a porn free life now even though my journey doesn't include her anymore. So it's the beginning of new year, with new hopes and dreams. Taking one day at a time.
Like your idea, i will do the same but with funko or silver coins . I have been strugguling with day 9 o 10 and I relapse. But with this new year I want to achieve more goals.
Keep strong brother. Always remember that there are many fish in the sea. Time will heal your heart, so just keep moving ,dont stop.
