Day 6. Congratulations on a tremendous accomplishment, @MS PBH! Really vulnerable and impactful post, @zusya. Despite how it feels sometimes, what we are doing (or trying our best to do) here does matter. Thanks fellowship.
Day 3 complete! @MS PBH You're a White Wizard now! Thank you for providing an example for us to follow! @zusya I'm really impressed and inspired by your commitment to improve your life even when it's so difficult. Do you have any way to physically limit your access to porn? The desire to get rid of it is half the battle. Spent a good chunk of the day hauling boxes of books. That's a pretty decent way to avoid urges. St. Moses the Black, pray for us!
@zusya thank you for your post, I wish you the best of luck on your path, start in small steps . I don’t know all the backstory but I don’t think that a female person that loves you is a best person to share your PMO problems. I tried sharing it with my wife and as you said about your mother, it seemed too much for her. The amount of emotions involved didn’t help me. Maybe try keeping it to the guy you messaged or your father if he’s there.
Day 22 complete still strugling not to look at womens bodies. It’s hard but there is some improvement. Other urges are controllable.
Day 17 as a Hobbit complete! Feeling good, feeling great. No major urges experienced. "Today, I am choosing to think thoughts that serve me well."
Thank You Brothers. I want you to hug all of you but we are very far from each other. A beautiful journey with these beautiful people, i will miss all of you and your beautiful and encouraging posts. I wanted to write my journey with suggestions but i am not able to write english words in good sentences. Sorry brothers forgive my mistakes. Thank you brothers especially @RiseToGreatness making this journey from impossible to possible. Goodbye...
Congratulations! If you need to walk away, that is better than lapsing. No, it is not sustainable, but you probably won't need to keep doing it long. Walking away for now does not seem like a bad idea to me, if that is necessary.
As for me, I'm putting the block back onto my phone, and this time I'll password protect it. I will have the password written down where, sure, I could look it up, but of course the idea is just to make that step necessary forcing me to take time to think about it.
I just started a P block on Cold Turkey blocker for my browsers. That will help slightly, although often I use a regular search engine to look for P lately, so I also need to stop that as it won't be blocked.
