Yeah. I guess the "compliments" from them are nice, but a voice in my head always says it's because I'm a creep but I don't think girls look at guys for that kinda reason.
Day 0 I feel that there is no point in writing here if it's just relapses for a couple or more days straight. But this kind of thinking makes me not write here at all. So I am going to write zeros every day if it's going to be zeros.
Why not ? - lower back pain - weak kidneys - low self confidence - struggle/ survival mode in work - running from the wounds - not present therefore not really alive and time is passing us by - brain fog - depression - 15-20% less strong/ fast/ lung capacity when exercising (and it takes about 5-10 weeks to get this back) - Ever decreasing life blood - shortening lifespan - lowered white blood cell count - compromised auto immune - more vulnerable to auto immune diseases - extremely irritable - not able to give energy to others which harms familial and collegial relationships - less capacity for work which harms my career - hijacking the body and minds natural reward system - overloading the neural pathways with dopamine that cannot be replicated in the natural world, leading to disconnecting from nature/ reality/ life - mental illness issues due to disconnecting from reality - downward spirals of substitute addictions - heightened procrastination - less resilience - exponentially faster aging
DAY 1 Having a hard time at school I decided to become a loner but this is bliss. I can now only focus on my studies as I have no BS to deal with and having easy time at Nofap because I am not flirting or taking with any girl. This is the exact state which I need to focus on my goals for about 3 months. Then I will give my exams and move on to college, far far away from these dumb losers at my school.
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 126 Days Free of PMO. Feeling a bit dizzy and fatigued today. I'm going to try my best to get my workout in and rest before work. Stay Strong! 126 days – You´re halfway the stairs. You move slowly trying to stay unnoticed by the flying Nazgûl. @HE^MAN Let's both get it bro! @Paul S. Congrats on the 30 days brother and well done on beating last years relapse period. @PeaceOnEarth108 Don't give up brother, keep getting up!
Day 0 Relapsed on day 467 Causes: +Too much free time, I'm unemployed right now +Allowed myself to eat stuff with sugar (dopamine) +Didn't cold shower for 2-3 days +Some bad things happened, and I gave me the "permission" to +Allowed me to watch videos that I shouldn't watch (high levels, high need of dopamine) +Got away from God, I think... I was taking some bad choices... +Was tempted at morning right after I woke up, I was weaker in that moment What can I say... I'm back to 0 Also I did it twice this morning. Since I relapsed, I didn't stop myself to do it again
Thanks! That period is not over yet. Let's be careful and wait November 18. And especially after the "last years relapse" period. Because sense of victory can be very tricky. I stepped on that rake very often.
What can you do... Yeah, mornings can be tricky. Especially the phase when we are not fully conscious yet.
Day 0 Sorry guest the reset happened yesterday night. I feel very nice joining this thread. I get motivated by seeing others in this journey and i hope I stop repeating old patterns that lead to resets. The old emotional and trauma induced patterns were hard to get out of but now since everything is fine I hope it would be easier to break . I m feeling really low, sad at whatever I had undergone in years even though I should have been thankful that everything is now sorted. Guess healing is a journal and good news is that it is starting to get better
Day 40 Days to 2023------47days Goals: 1.) Get Better At Studies 2.)Get Better Physique Time spent today : Exercises: 50min cycling +40min Swimming+ 45 min football Studies : 1 hr Time wasted today:10 hrs 30 min Total time spent : Exercises: 2 hrs 30 min Studies : 3hrs 50min Total time wasted :29hrs 50min Notes: 1. I have got a terrible screen addiction , I am constantly watching series after series . I say this is an addiction cause I feel Like I am not in control . 2. I overdid my physical activity part today probably cause I still have difficulty in studying so maybe I tried do more of physical activity and I injured my thigh and knees . I think I should stick to just 1 hr of exercise for the next 1 week . Has anybody had a similar series addiction .
Day 15 Urges: 1/5 Thoughts: 3/5 My energy levels are better today, actually managed to get in a short workout; though unfortunately I'm still feeling pretty meh about things. Now that the cold season is here, dropping down to at least the 20s, the water is running colder than normal, so I'm back to tolerance training. So far I'm doing pretty good, I'm surprised, I wasn't able to do it last year due to still being a beginner, now I'm able to stand the new lower temperatures for at least 2 minutes.
Day 0 again. Worked painting my room in the morning and ended up seeing some enticing photos on Instagram after lunch. I feel for MO and not explicit P. I gotta get myself back on track, but until I finish my room it'll be quite a storm. I understand you bro, I'm on my third Day 0, and I already though on stop posting until it ends, but it doesn't help. Here I am as a proof of it, I ended up going 4 months in a rut because of that.
Don't do it Paul! I know the feeling exactly. Just remember how adamant you were that you were done with this. Each day you get a bit better and the urges will fade.
Thanks for support! Yeah, I hope I won't satisfy the urge. We'll see before sleep. Though, to be honest, I feel detached from "no pmo" mindset now. It happens sometimes.
You've got to fight it! Don't reinforce the pathways anymore. It's never worth it, it's just your addict brain lying to you.
