The Lord of the Rings Challenge

7 days
Made another day without caffeine. Slept well, stress decreases. Feels lovely.

@Redemptionisrequired That's an important insight. It shows us that we're just trying to fill a hole with porn.

@LuckyMan welcome back

@Talz I'm not a fan of Christmas season either, at least emotionally...

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

157 Days Free of PMO

Last day of the work/school week. Let's make it count. Let's all try our best to go strong into 2023 brothers. Even if you relapse, do not beat yourself up about it. Take your time, assess. For those of you who are facing resurfaced urges, try to figure out the stressor in your life that is pulling at the cords of addiction. In fact, remember that it is just that, cords of addiction and not a voice of reason, a voice that tries to pull you away from the men that you are truly meant to be.

Stay Strong!

@e r i k _ s a t i e That dialogue is the voice of addiction brother, it's bribing you with false words. It's bent on keeping you addicted, it wants its fix. Don't give in.

@NeverDefeated and @LuckyMan Welcome back brothers, rise again and again! As many times as it takes. Assess the relapse, do not just let it pass you by.

@PeaceOnEarth108 You are right brother and congrats on 1 week!

 

welcome back brother. Lets start the fight against the PMO

 

Day 233
Only one day left for Mr Olymia 2022

 

Day 3 and 4 checking in.

 

15 days The Elven town of Rivendell greets your arrival. A Council of representants explains the path to Mordor in detail. You´re an Elf now.
NICE! I always wanted to be an Elf.
There have been some weird resurenges of various P imagery I've had/encountered throughout my life, it's almost like every day is a new one - and my mind is running through each one and shredding it, picking up another to see if it works. It won't work though lol.
Today there's a party at my house for Christmas, and I plan to not be isolated in my room but play chess and eat sweets and talk with people! More grateful for real people and conversations with all the changes I've made not only in NoFap- but within my personal life as well. I feel good!
(btw It says 14 days when I post this, but I have the streak to change every day at 12/Noon exactly)

I hope you have a good day Fellowship! Christmas is coming!

 

Day 71

These past days have been difficult for me , getting anxious and chronic procrastination was being a thing. And I decided to go see a therapist , can't say it helped much . It seems I might have a mild form of ADHD . If that's the case then I will just have to get it under control.


But least I am happy for the fact I no longer immediately resort to pmo when I am anxious( but I did have urges so it is important to develop my routine once again.

 

39 days

 

19 days
Middle urges yesterday and some brain fog, affected at my work. Today my mind is more calmed so it is easier to focus in my tasks.
Today I worked out and took a cold shower. Today I will hang out with coworkes, so will be a good day.
Keep strong my brothers.

 

Day 2

Sleepy! I think a lot of it is because of the cold. Still trucking along!

 

Day 72

Went for some early morning cycling and then went to play some frisbee .

 

8 days – Gildor Inglorion, an Elf, crosses your path causing a Nazgûl that was chasing you to flee. You stay the night with his company of Elves talking about your struggles with PMO. "Courage is found in unlikely places" he says. He gives you an Hithlain rope, a magical rope, light and flexible, yet extremely strong.

Quest Item – Hithlain rope

Happy to have reached 8 days again. Also in the next few days I won't be home alone so

 

Hobbit - Day 0 & 1. Checking in.

Day 0 - You decide to destroy the porn ring! You´re a Hobbit now. You must take the ring to the place where he was made, Mount Doom. You left Hobbiton heading for Bree.


Day 1 - At Buckland, Bilbo gives you Sting - an Elven short-sword made in Gondolin. It will turn blue when porn forces are around.
Quest Item - Sting


@Redemptionisrequired Hello brother, I'm in & I'm back! Probably, for a bit unless I slip again. But I will do my best with no PMO with no edging That's it.
Maybe I will tell you more in the next check in.

Here comes back The Lord of the Rings fan. I will give this one more go or maybe a couple more tries on Hard Mode since changing some things. I already started reading The Simillarion so I guess I gave myself permission to start here and do this challenge again. Don't take it personally if I don't interact as much compared to before. Just going on my journey and catch up to you stronger fellowship mates here. I will talk with you all brothers in the rest of this journey. I will need to meet my own requirements first before deciding what I want to do for my goals in this NoFap journey. Let's go fellowship.

 

40 days

 

Welcome back brother, we are glad to see you again in the challenge

 

Day 234
Early checking.
Mr olympia 2022 is happening now

 

Checking in Fellowship Friends!

158 Days Free of PMO

I intend to opt out of screens for the day, apart from this check in of course. It's a winter wonderland outside, which calls for a day of kicking back and resting. Given, I also only have a 1 day weekend this week, which is a bummer but what can you do.

Ever since I had my first experience with vertigo in the summer, I feel that the left part of my head has become very sensitive to headaches and such. I'm trying to navigate it and finally be free from that sensation as well, not certain what steps to take but I suppose giving my head a break is not a bad start.

Stay Strong!

@Shaggyisdeaf Congrats on making it to Elf ! I do hope your Christmas party was pleasant with a lot of good laughs.

@LLOYYD Welcome back brother! Glad to see you in the challenge again. Try your best and don't pressure yourself, take 1 day at a time.

 

16 days – Touched by your bravery, the gentle Elves of Rivendell give you an elven cloak. The cloak has a hood and is fastened by a green brooch. It acts as camouflage when PMO units are around.

Yesterday was kinda tough, kinda not, but thankfully I'm talking about commuting with people lol.
On the PMO spectrum, my head is once again running through stuff trying to persaude me like it's a new thing everyday, but I'm just saying no and Nah. Even did it to me this morning but now I'm not feeling it. I've been feeling more connected with my actions recently, more fulfillment, more being there-ness. It's a good feeling, especially whenever I draw. I am more focused on my action than myself, and the action has become the only thing in the world at that moment I care about.

I know part of it has to do with this of course and abstaining, but also since I'm abstaining from literally every other pleasure I wanted to abstain from: entertainment, distractions, quick-fixes, (TV, Youtube, Video games, etc., etc.) I feel like my head is healing even faster. It was tough at first. It's like forcing yourself into a new lifestyle at first and you just hate it. But honestly, now I am loving it, especially that connectedness feeling. I've been doing that for at least a week too, since the 9th when I got on here!

What sucks to me is that everyone around me, in my real space, is a negative personality and relies on their technology to feel better.
Like seriously, when I tell them what I'm doing when they ask, they start justifying why they do it to me, even though I never even asked them, or questioned what/why they do. it's like they are trying to justify something they KNOW is bad, like it's a survival instinct/to protect themselves from something. In almost every interaction I've had when I describe this, people just keep on trying to justify it to ME, even though I deliberately tell them I DIDN'T WANT TO DO IT. Like, come on! If I was quitting a drug and told you, you wouldn't start to convince me that the drug is ok to take. These people only do it with TV/Entertainment/etc. because it's the drug everyone takes.
This is, at least, How I see it. But this has happened to me WAY too much in my life lol. Sort of a vent but meh. In no way do I want to say that anyone who watches tv, or does anything like that is bad - I just think it's weird that people naturally defend it like it's necessary.

Have a good day fellowship! Long post today! Now I've got my Elven Cloak!

 

Day 32!

Be strong brothers! Trust in God.

No urges, as If I never had PMO problems.

 

20 days
Low urges yesterday, hanged out with friends, got drunk but was fun!
Today I didn't worked out, I got up late, but maybe I do it on afternoon. At nigth I will hang out again, so looks like will be a good day! At this moment working in my side projects.
Keep strong my brothers.