Sad to report that I’ve relapsed today due to M. Hoping that this is my first and last time I’m reporting a reset. Made it to day 53 and now going to reset to day 0. Need your prayers !
Day 52!! You might ask me why I'm trying to kill the Balrog because the balrog is made purely out of the essence of 'P' (it is the symbol of the other side of your brain which is trying to make you get back to your old days of watching porn) and such an evil thing must be DESTROYED!!!!
Back to day 25. I spend the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl. PMO forces are lurking in the area. I feel somewhat of a flatline or is it because I released less than 3 days ago with the wife? I'm surprised I haven't had any whatsoever chaser effects this time. Proud of myself for staying true to myself and on the path of greatness. For others who also are in a relationship or No PM is the goal, how do you feel a few days after intercourse in relation to your libido? I haven't done No PM (always No PMO) before so I'm curious how others experience it.
Day 2. No strong urges today but that's to be expected. Let's see how long I can ride the wave. @liona A Elbereth Gilthoniel / silivren penna miriel! We still remember, we who dwell / In this far land beneath the trees / The starlight on the Western Seas. Remember how when Frodo thought his hope was gone, and he was completely shrouded in darkness with a hideous enemy spinning its web all around him, he held on to the light in the Phial of Galadriel. We're always holding onto the light that shows us freedom from the scourge of PMO. You've got this! All the stars are looking down and cheering you on!
Day 8. I have a temptation this morning but I got over it. St. Maravillas of Jesus, pray for us! You have my sword. Count on my prayers. 53 days was a good streak, and I hope that´s your last relapsed. You can do it.
Day 12, Today I noticed I got thoughts like: 'See, you made it this far, its ok, you can give up now.' or something about I am not real addict and things like that. I know that's all not true, the evidence is clear so its just another strategy of my addiction. Sneaky little bastard!
