Total hard on loss

Hi all,
So im currently 4 days in, i manage to Stop for a few days Each stint but i lose my nocturnal and morning wood if im not Jerking off, does anyone else get this?when i fall back into my PMO cycle i get erections in the night but still cant get it up for my wife. But when i stop my dick seems to shrink up and die even after just a couple of days, currently i have had not even a twitch in 4 days just a cold smaller than usual flacid. Im more determined than ever this time and im not gonna quit but i dont want mu dick to just shrivel up and never work again, i need this ED to be gone from my life. I here a lot of stories of guys getting way mote aroused when they stop and even getting random erections happening again. I once quit for 10 days due to having a vasectomy and had boners after a few days and even had my first wet dream since being a teenager,
Please let me know if you experiance this or have heard it from others and how it improves withe time.