TWO YEARS WITHOUT PORN / THE TRADITION: YEAR THREE

DAY TWENTY-THREE:
I know I’m a little late, but it was a pretty good day, I had to overcome urges but now I’m in Vermont so no fapping until at least Sunday! Excited to go skiing with dad! I get to try out my new skis and watch football!

 

DAY TWENTY-FOUR:
So today was a weird day I guess, well, it started out normal and ended in watching That’s My Boy, but whatever. Today was the first day I went skiing this year. Just before we went out, my dad got a text from his cousin that my great aunt was on her way out. My dad and I were starting to drive home when my mom texted me that she had died. The family is okay now, she was 83 and had had dementia since I was like 7-8. She’s with her sister now I guess. So I actually didn’t end up going home, and you know what that means, no fapping! Surprisingly, my urges didn’t tank like I thought they would after my great aunt died, but I’ll keep fighting, she’d want me to do this, in her honor. Love you auntie, see you on the other side, hopefully in like 85 years or something, but still. Miss you already.

 

Yeah. She had gotten worse and worse over the years, and actually I was wrong when I said I was 7-8 when she got dementia, it was really when I was 5-6. It’s been tough watching her slip away, but we know she’s in a better place now, I kinda had a feeling that even with severe dementia she knew her sister (my grandmother) was really gone, and that it was only a matter of time. She remembered me the last time I saw her and it was fitting how it happened. Oh well.

 

DAY TWENTY-FIVE:
Tough day fellas. Not only am I coming to terms with losing my great aunt, my dad and I are also coming to terms with the end of the Patriots dynasty, and it’s also Sunday, so that doesn’t help. I feel like complete crap, I remember making a rule to the challenge that I got two nights when I could binge, well, tonight is my last chance for it, because tomorrow night is too close to Christmas for it. Ugh, hopefully I get better soon, and the Patriots get lucky and get the bye. See you all tomorrow.

 

DAY TWENTY-SIX:
Ugh, bad night, then bad day. I’ve felt like crying most of the day, especially after my mom was telling me stories of how my great aunt was before dementia. She loved gardening, and she loved talking to her sister (my grandma) and her cousin at parties, even if they argued. The Patriots still have me down too, even though the Eagles will hopefully beat the Texans next week and save us (I hate rooting for Philly lol). I binged unfortunately last night and I fapped today. Tomorrow I’m definitely getting back up on the saddle and riding it out until the end, for my aunt, she’d want me to do that.

 

DAY TWENTY-SEVEN:
One more week remains boys, it’s been fun, but it ain’t over yet. Urges got me today, but, I gotta feeling I have one final push to the finish in me. 7 days, aiming to only fap once. I think I got it in me this time. Also, I’m feeling a little better about my aunt. She was suffering for 9 years, getting worse and worse, and is in a better place now. That’s all I gotta think of.

 

DAY TWENTY-EIGHT:
I made it through the day no fapping! I feel slightly better about things at school now so that’s good. I’m really starting to think about Christmas and after the nofap season is over, just another 6 days and it is. Hoping to rattle off another great streak to finish strong, and I’m getting there. Just keeping on rolling along.

 

DAY TWENTY-NINE:
Today was a tough day for not fapping, I binged a little. School was good though. I’m just sad about Josh Gordon, I’m gonna miss watching him play. So my plan for the rest of the time until Wednesday is complete nofap. 5 days may be tough, but I think I can do it. If I make it to Monday morning I know I will. I’ve begun to reflect on this time, and I can safely say I’ve grown as a person, and while it’s not what I imagined it to be, nofap has been beneficial this year. But as I reflect, I remember, it ain’t over ‘til it’s over, and it ain’t over until the clock strikes twelve on Wednesday. Good night fellas.

 

DAY THIRTY:
A month is in the books! School is all done for now and I’m getting ready for the holidays, and also what’s next after Christmas. I was out most of today so it was easier. Not perfect but no fapping today. See everyone tomorrow.

 

DAY THIRTY-ONE:
Tough one today. Whole lotta binging and doing nothing. I felt sad for some reason most of the day and like I might be sick. I think the sadness might be the fact that I was very streaky and not consistent in nofap this year, and while I had that 5 day streak in the middle and a few 3 day streaks, I wasn’t good about it, especially this week, the most important one. However, tomorrow I’m going to the Pats game so no fapping during the day, and once I make it through tomorrow night Monday and Tuesday will be easy. I can end out the challenge on a 4 day streak, which would be amazing. See everyone tomorrow.

 

UPDATE:
So I figured out my fapping statistics so far and oh boy they’re not good.

So far I’m at 30 faps in 31 days, which is still a lot less than the 31 days before I started but still.

However, many, 21 to be exact, of those faps were spread out over 6 separate days when I fapped multiple times.

So when I take out the 6 days and the 21 faps from them I get 9 faps in 25 days. Which actually isn’t that bad, if I don’t fap the rest of the way I get 9 in 28, which amazingly is at my every third day goal. So I guess it isn’t all that bad. Just gotta finish strong.

 

DAY THIRTY-TWO:
Huge rebound today. One of the easiest days of the whole challenge so far. I had very few urges and was more focused on football and social media. Being at the game was fun, I’m just worried about Tom Brady a little bit. Merry Christmas Eve Eve everyone.

 

DAY THIRTY-THREE:
Merry Christmas Eve everyone! Easy day today, little to no urges, hung out with the family. Presents in the morning, it’s all good. One day left boys, gotta make it count. Ugh it’s so bittersweet. See everyone tomorrow.

 

DAY THIRTY-FOUR:
This is it boys, Merry Christmas, hope you all had a good day, I did. I got a lot of presents. One annoying thing though was my dad mentioning that he thinks I have an addictive personality, and that I have no self control. If only he knew the shit I have put myself through for a holiday tradition lol (not that this is a bad thing, it’s vital). I’m also at my grandparents’ house today, so no fapping, even into tomorrow. Well, what was once 34 days, is now 8 minutes. I love you guys, everyone here has helped me. But if I did this tradition all year, it wouldn’t be special, it has to only be for the holidays. I will make my valiant return on November 28, 2019. (Or probably on the 23rd for my 3 year no porn anniversary). See you all then. I’ll miss you all!

 

UPDATE:
It is currently 12:05 A.M. which means that the 34 days are up, it’s over...

Wait a minute... there are TWELVE MORE DAYS OF CHRISTMAS! I can’t leave now! Not until January 7th.

Ok, the last 12 days are NOT the same as the first 34. These days are less about nofap and more about the aftermath of the challenge and how I’ve changed, but I still try to fap less. I am not strict at all though. See you all at the end of the day for my day 35 post.

 

DAY THIRTY-FIVE:
So day one of the postseason was a binge. I don’t feel awful, because this was expected. Tomorrow is my great aunt’s funeral, and I’m going away, so there will probably be no fapping. Hopefully not too much.

 

DAY THIRTY-SIX:
Not as much of a binge day, it wasn’t as sad as I thought it would be at the funeral. I miss my great aunt but I know she’s in a better place. Well, onto 37.

 

DAYS THIRTY-SEVEN AND THIRTY-EIGHT:
Not much has really happened the last two days, haven’t binged much. I may do a final nofap push into next Sunday, idk. My mental state has improved a lot though.