very WIERD reboot (almost 90 days)

hi there guys, i think this post will help us all learn somethings.
didnt post here for few weeks, which was very intresting and full of things i'd like to discuss and ask; so i'll start:

until about day 64 i did hardmode.

my ED was DRAMATICALLY improved but still there is alot to do further.
i started to have little spontanoes erections sometimes.

then girl gave me bj and i o'ed 2 times
few days after that i fucked another girl and first time of my life came from sex (only 2 weeks before i was able to penetrate for the first time of my life also)
and then i fucked the first one..
in total i o'ed something like 7 times in a week all from bj or sex..no hands involved.

it was very fun but also my drive decreased dramatically but i didnt felt bad..just wierd.
i thought to my self that if i had a girlfriend..after a week i just wouldnt want to fuck her for 2 weeks atleast?
it shoudn't be like this..so i guess my libido is still suffering; also my spotanoues erections stoped. /:


now at day 80 i mo'ed to O without any porn or fantazy or deathgrip or fast speed..only mo'ed and it wasn't out of horniness (and i never felt a need to masturbate..ever; i'd only got horny from porn and then masturbated in the past) and neither this time.
i only wanted to check something about my sexuality that i read about sex and was embarresed to try infront of a girl..kind of practice..didnt felt bad about it at all so i didn't count that as relapse.
today day 82, i practiced this again and mo'ed in the same fashion to O..i satisfied my curiosity and finished the needed practice.

i ofcourse feel the toll of this 2 O's phisically and a little mentally..but still dont feel bad about it and i know it came from very concious place in me and not from the addiction.
and so i don't know how to regard this incidents, either the girls and those 2 mo's.

 

To be honest i never liked MO without the porn so i dont think its an excuse..especially after 80 days..but i will heed your warning; tnx