Withdraw... lonely

I am barely into recovery and am already feeling the empty loneliness porn artificially fills in my life. I am 22 and have never had a successful relationship in my life (yet). I once again find myself reminiscing on my past relationships thinking to myself... will ever be loved? If I will ever gather up the courage to go up to a girl I find attractive to start something new. I am only on day two, but I've watched porn for almost a decade... and sometimes the thought of a healthy relationship with someone my age seems close to impossible. Porn addiction has ruled my life. It's made me only care about the sexual gratification...it's ripped me of my courage.