silex_jedi

50 days. all "one day at a time". i only have today.

i've succeeded NNN 2023 (first time ever i think)... however was this really a wet dream or more (the night before the last)?

i'm 40 days in recovery, in some chronic emotional pain but never been so grateful. weird.

i'm tired may i not go in automatic mode in my sleep. if you know what that is!

i'm glad to be where i am now. but tomorrow will challenge my nerve. so have a great 24h people!

it's hard to understand how i got to those 29 days.

i just want not to fail tonight. good night.

the only thing i want tonight is to be sleep and only sleep.

why does my brain think it's ok to give in? :'(

this monday afternoon i want to be able to say "i did not search for porn".

it's late and i'm exhausted. i should turn off all the "dopamine depleting gear"... good night, i'm glad to be back here. it's hard.

tomorrow to the end of the year: that's 133 days. hmmm...

i just wanted to thank anyone in here that i shared path with. it's invaluable to be able to talk anything here.

this porn and internet addiction is ruining my appetite.

hi. leaving the Internet for july. see you in august.

back at one week YES.

feeling unusally good today... "it's times as these i learn to love again".

oops.

double fail last night and this morning.

back online for a moment... well i guess i'm already back offline. be careful people!