silex_jedi

ok. good night. let this night not have too bad consequences on tomorrow.

i will finally get paid! i have an internship.

:'( ok so the internship i was applying for since a few months ago got someone else to do the job :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'( :'(

i am going to record myself during my sleep and see what happens... i'm a bit weak tonight so let's have something to sleep for.

want it or not, i'm feeling bad tonight. the good thing is tomorrow i'll still be there.

final interview (on monday) for an internship i've been preparing for a long time... just three. more. days. and then the wait.

i might be in pain because of trying to starve my addiction tonight... instead of peacefully sleeping. pray for me.

though i slipped off a lot recently, i actually think that i am not that bad today! i renew my commitment! see you tomorrow!

note to myself. i feel like ####, but with some great progress nonetheless! i am a great ####.

what a weird weekend...

oops triple oops. X(

oops again.

installed Focus for YouTube on my computer for "spoiler" reasons... it had good unintended side effects!

twelve hours later i feel better, not great but not bad.

i am not in a terrible mood. though the night was pain, i made it \o/

really bad mood. i'm coming back in twelve hours, and i'll be in a good one. it's not impossible.

porn, masturbation... when i think about today, it's as if it's a part of me that's choking... what does that mean...

i don't mind washing dishes. damn... but i wish i had someone telling me jokes while the kitchen turns from dirty to clean.

i've had a satisfying interview today, i hope it will come to a good end.

please dear myself : not today okay?