Dodgerschokedagain
Fapstronaut
For most people, Thanksgiving is about family and being grateful. As for me? Well, it’s been day one for the last four years. No Nut November? Well, that’s like the preseason, a practice run. You know that one kid you always see around here in November and December talking about his “tradition”? That’s me, back again, ready for a new year.
As I said in Monday’s post: (https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/almost-that-time-of-year-again.258600/) I would be back, and here I am.
To recap again what has happened over the last 11 months: I grew out of a lot of my insecurities last February-June, and then had to grow out of them again this August-November. The summer slide hit hard this school year and reverted me back to how I was before, but I improved.
Here’s a more in depth look at what’s been happening:
January: Began to grow out of my insecurities, but still had depression and wasn’t feeling well.
February: Developed a crush on a girl I had like a 5% chance with, and began to mature a lot and had good strides but I still had depression and unhealthy coping habits (self harm, no cutting).
March: This is when I came out of the depression for good, and quit hurting myself (March 9th was the last time I self harmed). I was very scared to talk to my crush but that faded as March went on and April began.
April: Really began to hit my stride, had some really good moments and had better relationships. Probably the peak of my sophomore year when it comes to my relationships.
May: Much of the same but my crush had faded, but so did my insecurities for good.
June: School ended, I was sad but I got over it quick. The last two weeks of school were good.
July: Not much happened except for my driving school week.
August: Turned 16, got my permit, and the high of the first half of the year (the best part) ended, had worries about school and I missed last year. School began the last week and I knew something was wrong.
September: I was back to around February or March. I didn’t like my classes and missed last year. Got bullied and switched friend groups. Not good.
October: Not the best, but improvement, began to adjust to my new friend group but I still had bullies.
November: I really began to hit my stride again and by now I feel really solid in my new group (which I knew everyone in it going in), and the bullies are basically gone. Of course, I crashed my car, and now it’s totaled. It’s sad but I know I have people to get me through it.
Everyone still here? Sorry for the life story haha, but anyways. This year is 28 days, beginning tomorrow. No real goal but fap much less. I can’t go cold turkey it’ll mess up my mind and I don’t need that. My fapping is obsessive but it doesn’t dominate my life, this is all tradition, I have to keep it going. I’m a little bit nervous right now, it’s kinda like oh my god tonight’s the night, but I’m excited to test out my capabilities and hopefully make my rise to the top faster, almost time to rock and roll!
As I said in Monday’s post: (https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/almost-that-time-of-year-again.258600/) I would be back, and here I am.
To recap again what has happened over the last 11 months: I grew out of a lot of my insecurities last February-June, and then had to grow out of them again this August-November. The summer slide hit hard this school year and reverted me back to how I was before, but I improved.
Here’s a more in depth look at what’s been happening:
January: Began to grow out of my insecurities, but still had depression and wasn’t feeling well.
February: Developed a crush on a girl I had like a 5% chance with, and began to mature a lot and had good strides but I still had depression and unhealthy coping habits (self harm, no cutting).
March: This is when I came out of the depression for good, and quit hurting myself (March 9th was the last time I self harmed). I was very scared to talk to my crush but that faded as March went on and April began.
April: Really began to hit my stride, had some really good moments and had better relationships. Probably the peak of my sophomore year when it comes to my relationships.
May: Much of the same but my crush had faded, but so did my insecurities for good.
June: School ended, I was sad but I got over it quick. The last two weeks of school were good.
July: Not much happened except for my driving school week.
August: Turned 16, got my permit, and the high of the first half of the year (the best part) ended, had worries about school and I missed last year. School began the last week and I knew something was wrong.
September: I was back to around February or March. I didn’t like my classes and missed last year. Got bullied and switched friend groups. Not good.
October: Not the best, but improvement, began to adjust to my new friend group but I still had bullies.
November: I really began to hit my stride again and by now I feel really solid in my new group (which I knew everyone in it going in), and the bullies are basically gone. Of course, I crashed my car, and now it’s totaled. It’s sad but I know I have people to get me through it.
Everyone still here? Sorry for the life story haha, but anyways. This year is 28 days, beginning tomorrow. No real goal but fap much less. I can’t go cold turkey it’ll mess up my mind and I don’t need that. My fapping is obsessive but it doesn’t dominate my life, this is all tradition, I have to keep it going. I’m a little bit nervous right now, it’s kinda like oh my god tonight’s the night, but I’m excited to test out my capabilities and hopefully make my rise to the top faster, almost time to rock and roll!