Hello everybody! I just want to write somewhere about my situation. I´m on day 5 without masturbation to porn. It has not been hard really. The only difference is that i feel more calm and maybe a bit more sad than usually. I haven´t really felt that porn is a big issue in my life, although in periods it has been a big and kind of destructive part of my life. But i have for a long time felt that i have become gradually more and more lonely in all kinds of ways. Friendships, romantic relations and i have even felt kind of alienated from myself. When i have felt anxiety, loneliness or feelings of failure the solution has been porn and masturbation. At work on the toilet, before sleep at home, at restaurants or cafés in the toilet. When i think about it now it feels so tragic, but that has been my life for long periods of time. I don´t tink i can live my life like that anymore. Something inside me is just saying stop and now i´m trying to change direction. No more porn, no more masturbation and fantasies to avoid emotional pain. I don´t want to avoid what is painful in my life anymore. I want sex to be something i have together with someone, not just one of many tools i use to numb myself. So, this is day 5 and is has ok, a bit boring maybe, but then again thats sort of the point. Is this what you guys here would consider a "reboot" or "rewire"? I´m confused about these concepts. I prefer to use words that connect better with the existential situation i connect me stopping this behavior with... can anyone relate to that?
I'm watching The punisher and its difficult to have a normal life with movies etc cause pretty women are everywhere.
You have to choose what to watch and what not to watch. I decided to stop watching television at all. For example. It helps me enormously to overcome my addiction.
A reboot is when you abstain from PMO in order to heal from PMO abuse. Your brain has been trained to crave PMO instead of real intercourse. Abstaining from it will heal the neurotransmitters in your brain that have been damaged by years of abnormally frequent dopamine hits (you reboot your brain). Rewiring is when you've healed enough to start dating girls and progressively engage in a romantic and sexual relationship. It's the final step. Once you've rewired and porn free you should be cured. I hope it makes sense.
i'm on my 7th day and also feel like something important is missing. I felt kind of a euphoric sensation the first few days, so don't let it seem like giving up PMO is going to be easy. the real test comes with the flatline, or the severe cravings many report just before flatline. so don't get over confident and remember how you feel about your past miserable experiences now, cause they might not seem so bad when your brain is tricking you into submission...
It only "seems" to be something important you are now missing, because you was the one who made it important... Why not give value to other things? Then these things become important.....
Im on day 4 and I feeling really alot of emotions, my brain is just giving me so many negative thoughts, and I just want it to stop, I know pmo always helps me, when my mind is messing with me, but i been addicted for years, and my pmo just gets out of control, and I go days watching p, and I feel so much shame, but i just can stop the cycle. I wanna make it, one more day, I just gotta resist the temptation to pmo.
Its normal to feel pain. Accept to be sad and bored at least for one night. Our society teaches us that its not normal to be sad in movies etc and we are always entertained. But when you are lonely, you face the truth with difficulties to find goal in life and you face your desillusions, troubles, anxiety etc. Accept to not be perfect. Your only satisfaction (maybe) at least will be to not masturbate.
Actually it's a strange thing. Something that gives us huge amounts of pleasure..... is hurting us in fact. Something to think about.... Why does it hurt so much? And where does it hurt?
I think this is day 7, for the first time feeling urges so look at porn. Won’t do it. It’s just a hard and boring day so far, wish i could escape it. But i can’t and i don’t want to escape my pains and problems anymore.
Spend some time reading here on nofap. You can't keep on watching porn while reading all the destructive and deadly results of it.
Thanks man! I feel good about it so far. It´s a journey to find what really matters to you. Because porn and other kinds of very influential things has brought us quite far away from ure true values. I do not want to support an industry that exploits and manipulates women of which many have been victims of sexual abuse in their childhood, i do not want to have an machanic and instrumental view of women and of my Close relations, i want to be a good friend, partner, and in my dreams someday a father. This is something that motivates me to stay away from the poison that porn har become for me!
I think alot of us started this so young it´s hard to say what is what. Personally it makes me sad that porn has hijacked my sexuality, and that my own sexuality has become something a used to protect myself from my own feelings :/