Overcoming

Hi y'all
Im new at this site, and joined this because i've been feeling like i'm not living to my fullest potential. It's like i know i can do so many things better but i just can't because my mind is clouded and kinda messed up.
I've been through alot througout my life. I was born in a poor area in the world, where war and poverty reigned. In this camp i was molested as kid.
Luckily we got visa to an european country where i got the opportunity to live another life. I was offered school and safety. But somehow i never felt like i fitted in or just felt different and not enough, always compared my self with others, even as child.
Slowly as i got older i got in different social groups where i started hang out untill late. It started with smoking cigarettes. At high school it was smoking+cigarettes. 2. year it was alcohol+smoking+marihuanna. Then it was MDMA, Cocain, amphetamine, LSD.
Then something happend. after my LSD i got some sort of revelation. I could see which path my life was on, and it was not the path i wanted to be on. So i stopped all smoking and drinking and drugs. I got spiritual. I started practicing religion, because i genuinly believe there must be some kind of higher power, because anything else would be lying and denying some kind of universal truth.
But however one thing always kept going on the dark. It didn't feel that bad. And i never imagined how it could affect my life. But now i realize PMO is the hardest 'drug' i've ever been up against. Even though i'm married and have a lovely wife who would go through fire and water with me, i just cant seem to get over this. And it makes me feel like a hypocrite, a looser and a fiasco, like i can see my life being wasted in front of a screen. When it was worst i actually ended up cheating. It has ruined every single idea of who i am as a man, and which kind of man i wanted to be.
I've been reading many books how to overcome addiction, but in reality i feel it very hard to practice. But i know one thing for sure. I'm never gonna quit trying to reach that maximum potential i know i can be. Mentally, physically, emotionally, socially and spiritually.

 

thanks mate. I really feel like that this community just might be the support i need for this to succeed.

 

Hey @xMan

I'm just a normal ordinary member. No moderator super powers and no special insite. I share my ESH (Experience, Strength and Hope) of what works for me.

Just another warm welcome and a heart felt hello. This community has helped me so much.

What worked for me was "working" it. It took hard work for me to complete a hard reboot (No pmo) for 120 days, then move into a Sex Positive mode.

First, reading the literature published by NoFap itself along with reading journals.

Then, doing the work. Writing in my journal and replying to introductions and other's journals.

Finally, but not least, getting involved with the fellowship. I found it on the forums, but also in people's profiles. The forums tend to be longer posts, where the profiles tend to be more "conversational".

That is what has worked for me. I like to remind myself that this community was here waiting for me with the lights on when I arrived. Now, I have to do my best to be there when someone comes to the community.

* L

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PS: Why not say hello to some members? The fellowship is so important to me, I hope you might find it important as well.

@GeeWhizz Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/152127/
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@Sunshadow Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/75108/
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@Tomoya Okazaki Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/143534/
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@2525 Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/150280/
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@Visor Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/144228/
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@Dragonnlife Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/136148
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@weddingnails Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/143418/
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@Struggle Bug Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/141911/


There are many more, and you can discover them on your own. But, these are great places to start.

 

Thank you very much for ur posts. Its Nice to see and read

 

Thanks for being a part of our fellowship.

* L