Day 4 done. Easier than day 3. I've begun to notice how many triggers there are in media, particularly TV. I knew they were there before but I suppose I didn't look at them as 'triggers' or traps, but as opportunities. When you're on a mission to avoid them they seem much more like menacing traps. It's no revelation that we live in a society where we are baited with sex in the media, but when you stop passively consuming it you notice it much more and the scale of it becomes quite shocking. I'm not necessarily against it either, but I certainly am in favour of being more aware and in control. Bring on day 5.
Day 41. End of the weekend. Stayed very busy and had very few urges. My urges as of late have been very fleeting. Its not an urge to P but to M. Of course that has been my pattern in the past when I have tried to stop. First I would M with out P then slowly start to need the P. I have never tried to stop M before this attempt and It seems to be working very well.
5/90 This morning sucked... I woke up to an almost wet dream but held it in successfully, then went to sleep and had another almost wet dream but held it in, but my dick hurt soo bad after the 2nd time. So I attempted to MO without porn (my main goal has been to cut porn out for good, not MO) and I was actually able to successfully MO with no thoughts at all except focusing on the sensations. This is a major win for me, last time I did that was probably 7+ years ago! Bye forever porn!