0/90 I failed. I gave in to the temptation to masturbate. My resolve crumbled so easily like a sand castle before a wave. I can at least say I resisted the urge to watch porn, so, while it's a failure all the same, it's not as devastating a failure as it could have been. Lord, help me to see that my failures are not Your failures, to resolutely rely on You in my darkest moments, & to never give in to despair but to always hope & trust in Your mercy & justice. Amen.
Day 78 (Season IV) I always learn something about how to deal with my inner pain in a better way. Praying for presence today.
Day 40. Rough start to my morning. Woke a little early to get ready for work and decided to mess around with my wife. She rolled over and went back to sleep. So I went to take a shower, but all the while my mind was okay I will just watch some porn and masturbate. Got as far as going to the website and scrolling thrust some videos. But something made me stop and ask is this worth this. So I came straight to the forum and posted. Glad I'm still on track.
