Day 0/21. I really feel like I have to have a conversation with God to get off everything my chest. I've done so much wrong, and I have so many mixed feelings. I left this person who was toxic in my life... but in the worst possible way. Although they are gone, my life hasn't gotten any better. I'm not any more focused... my spiritual health isn't any better, and I have been watching this filth...even without urges. I owe her a lot, and... I've said some wrong things about her that was out of anger and that I didn't mean. I need to focus more... and really see where I am at my point. For like a couple months I was saying, I'll get everything together once she's out of my life... and now she is. But she got the worst end of it, and I'm still doing worse. She wasn't only the problem... my heart is the issue too. I need to clean it... I really want to make this last now. And I really hope this chapter in my life is something she would still be proud of, and I hope she's able to live her best life...and fight through the pain.
Ok, day 1 done, again! Really want to look right now, but about to get up and get ready for work. Bring on day 2!
I really hope you achieve what you want to, you got to hack it out even in the worst times. You got this