[365-CHALLENGE] THE THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 165
"We must let go of the life we have planned, so as to accept the one that is waiting for us." – Joseph Campbell

 

This has happened to me, too: the "hands-free O." Too many times. Also for me, it would happen more with so-called p-sub-type things, not women fully revealed. Through my mistakes, I know that this is one more reason why I cannot (and don't want to) go near provocative imagery, whatever that may be. A lot of times I would wake up the next day and then remember what I did and totally regret it. This stuff is so not worth it! Trust me, much better days are ahead!

 

Thanks for sticking with it, I always look forward to your posts.

 

Saturday I lost my temper with my 6 year old daughter. I yelled at her worse than I ever have before and she really wasn't doing anything wrong or misbehaving. I was very tired and irritable and she was just being a 6 year old kid. I could say things to somewhat take the heat off myself but the last sentence is the truth of it.Then yesterday I felt her mother should have supported me a bit and when she didn't I got resentful. I've been sober with no real thought of drinking for well over 20 years but later that day I started feeling so ugly and uncomfortable inside that I was afraid I might drink. It really scared me. Then I thought of relieving the pressure with some pmo. I didn't. I did about 10 minutes of breathing and trying to just sit with it. I realize that I need to get back to get active and committed to mtgs and the 12 steps. I've drifted away and need to get back. It was a good wake up call. Also today I was feeling some anxiety and instead of hiding from it with m or food I did a bit of vigorous exercise then took a half hour walk. So far the day has been a success. One say at a time.

 

Welcome back. I support your restart and your intention to end your compulsive porn use.

 

I don't know about one time payments, but you probably already know Nofap promotes automatic monthly donations of $10US from your bank account. I started doing that several months ago because it was helping me enough that I felt I should give something back. If you invest in something, your heart tends to follow.

 

Day 57/365

 

"Your best teacher is your last mistake."
This is a great quote!

 

38/365

 

69 days completed.

 

Day 219/365

 

Day 11
I'm tired, lonely ,depressed, confidence level very low and that glow on face disappeared. What is happening?
Nofap was supposed to be good, why am I feeling the opposite ? Help

 

CIII

 

I want to give up but I don't want to, my mind will blow ,I can't take the challenge anymore but I dont want to fail

 

I

 

What you are experiencing is only temporary. The entire universe, including your mental state, is in a continual state of change. The way you move forward in life is by charting your course and holding your position regardless of whatever else is happening.

 

I’m in

 

Checking in. On day 37!

 

I went for a walk took a little fresh air ,feeling little calm now