This is probably my 10th attempt, the 3rd I made it over 50 days clean. But the first where I'm still highly motivated every single day!
Relapsed on 6. Sitting in one’s room doing nothing all day is so not helpful. I honestly think the cure is being around other people and living with meaning and purpose. If those conditions are satisfied...it probably wouldn’t be so hard. Day: 0/90 Fitness: 6/90 Diet: 6/90 Unselfconsciousness: 3/90
I am now at day 2/90 it’s been really hard seriously, my dick is hard like 50% of the time but I’ve been doing a lot to keep my mind off of it. It’s just hard with it being summer and being bikini weather there are a lot of triggers around. But I am setting my mind to it. I will succeed.
Date started: Jan 25, 2019 Day 169/173 no PM (relapsed day 51, 70, 102, 150,) Day 71/90 meeting my goals in challenge Day 173 no alcohol or caffeine Day 46 of weight training - no urges, feeling good, sleeping better - abstaining from sex with the wife so far until I find out what the bump is on my left epididymus - anxious about my up coming ultrasound to figure it out - if I have a spermatocele or a epididymal cyst, I think it will be the result of edging for much of my adult life which started with renting VHS videos in the late 80's, I'm 56 now - free health advice for the day: - if you are going to masturbate fellas with or without porn, don't edge for hours like I did, just get on with it and shoot your load, I'd say within 30 minutes max, not 4 hours marathons like I often used to do, as it is hard on the male reproductive system - delaying orgasm with a partner is different and not so hard on it nor is it addictive like porn
Fuck I just relapsed. I was fighting all morning. I think if I would have pushed through another day then the urges would start slowing. Everyday I had an urge.
