Check in in Friday morning - so busy last few nights. Gonna stay busy over the weekend, too much time is my downfall.
Cheky Cheky, day13 and friday. No urges, ive made up my mind about quitting PMO. Maybe that what makes it easyer. Im still careful and alert. This addiction is a snake, it crawls near to you, and bytes if youre not alert.
Friday - Day 11. I’m not going to cave in any way and I’m going to get lots done. I need to stop defining the most important thing of day with what I don’t do.
A snake! Totally! There’s a really cool image of this in Exodus. Israelites are in the desert. They are depraved. They are infested with snakes. They are bitten and die. Moses makes a brass serpent for them to look at to protect them from the venom. The imagery is powerful: the snake represents animal nature that we cannot subdue. The brass serpent is the emblem of the transformation of the self. When we are transformed, the snakes cannot kill us. I am a huge geek, I know, but you started it by referencing the snake.
There is a 30 day challenge starting Monday. 3 man teams. Anybody from the group want to join the challenge?
Feeling insane urges tonight, I was fine but since my gym workout I have become all jittery with urges. Not just physical urges but mental as well, wanting to look at hot women etc. I refrained from using my phone, went for walk for about an hour but urges are still high even now. I wonder why I urge in gym and after?
Maybe the girls there fire something up deep down? Or something else. I’m fighting tonight too. Pushing it away. Not even having direct urges. Just an urge to do stuff that will later lead to pm. I have been doing a good job controlling thoughts lately so this is interesting. My junkie brain wants a fix. I’m going to try to sleep.
@JJ_Kino @control your life I saw Control Your Life on the unassigned list of the challenge already. You want to join us and make a team? Those are the kind of urges I need to learn to shut down. Last night turned out not bad for me.
Checking in. More good days than bad ones this week. The withdraw effects are still strong but I can handle them as long as I don't get complacent.