Day 188. The desire level of P is surprisingly low 1/100 ... I also don't trust this, I know that a storm can be triggered at any moment! Very happy with the new accountability group, we are already 7 members in just one day. It will certainly be a time of growth and victory for each member. Have a good weekend, let's be predictive and stay focused on good things. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Philippians 4:8
1/100 is great. You're right not to trust it though - we know this process is non-linear but gradually there will be more days with a low "P" desire.
Check in. Last few days, maybe a couple of weeks, have been pretty easy. No interest in P at all, although I do notice ads with women in bikinis etc. In fact, I’m mildly grossed out by P. Desire for M is almost non-existent too. I have been pretty busy and my thought have been in work. That probably helps. I find that I have been running non-stop for weeks now and I still feel sharp and mentally connected. This is unusual. Let’s see where this leads me.
That is great to hear. I wonder often how far I can go with nofap. 56 days is my record. I want to get to a place where M and P seem like something I can live without.
Thank you my man. Thanks for thinking of me. And just know that I always have your back as well. I hope that you have an amazing day today, and every day.
Another week in the books. God I feel better already. I have to keep this streak going. I had that really good streak of 65 days and remember how good that felt, and I've been stuck in the 1 week rut ever since! Making jerky today in the smoker, gotta bring more firewood in the house, then I'm playing video games like I was a kid again lmao!
Another reset. Been stressed and trying to escape it the wrong way. Eating horrible too; so I’m starting a new meal plan and pm plan. Hope it works and I stick to it.
You are not alone. I have been having trouble getting more than a day or two under my feet as well. It's like being stuck in snow and spinning my tires.
I've felt like that for quite a while. It gets easier. That's what I tell myself, because it does. And when I get those incredible urges and don't give in, I feel victorious. Then the urges get further and further apart.
After a long, busy week, I gave myself the day off at home but that also led to giving myself a day off of recovery after a productive week. Starting today with journaling, meditating and working through more of the Reforged Man course and then going to the gym.
Taken out by another weekend. One tempting thought and my determination dissolved. It was just stupid. It is stunning how weak I can be sometimes. No chaser for me, I'm getting right back to it this time.
Well, my counter might not be saying much, but 6 hours ago was 40 days porn-free. The times I have fapped in the past 40 days, with one or two partial exceptions, were entirely done out of pure horniness, and not to escape painful negative emotions. Even then, I fapped to real memories, or imagined situations based on real memories with real women from my past. I have also developed a visualization method that has helped immensely with being a healthy replacement for porn in regards to coping with negative emotions. It's quite simple really, and I will make a full post about it soon. Happy Sunday everyone.
hey man have you ever tried doing a hot yoga class? I find it helps me with the urges and grounds me so much - may be cause im surrounded by other hot yoga girls lol but something about being around other people, breathing and being present - gets me out of the seeking mode to being mode. I also discovered class pass - which lets me try yoga classes free for 2 weeks. here is my referral link see if it resonates https://classpass.com/invite/7VTFTEP49 (type your location on the top to see the classes near you )
That’s the tricky part of this. One thought not pushed away and then it’s reset and the real battle begins - a battle to not fall into bad habits a cycles of destructive behavior. I guess the most important thing is to never give up. I’ve been struggling with feeling powerless lately but a resolve to never give up makes tomorrow look brighter.
Day 10. Milestone one achieved. Hasn't been easy, nevertheless I got there. God has been moving powerfully in my heart. Not much else to report, just a short update. Hope you are all remaining strong. Seek Jesus in all that you do, don't give in no matter how hard it gets. Blessings.