day (1)28 checking in, Tomorrow it's time to know who is going to hit this time So this morning I woke up really early and hit the gym again to be sure to be ready for the fight Now I am studying until evening where I'll have a light dinner and then early sleep. Sorry for being brief but that's all I have to say today
@Kratos_GOW I read this post and thought you might like it: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/1-year-hard-mode-this-is-what-i-learned.262709/
Check in Day 23. sorry for the lack of updates and likes for my fellow Spartans posts, I will update and do that soon. lot was happening the last few days, more so just keeping myself busy with work, and friends as had a few events that I was living life not attached to my phone as much. I feel tremendously better then I did a few weeks ago. I still need help and work but I can honest say my focus and determination are not straying and I am staying the course. stay with my brothers
Day 63. Tbh, my morning wasn't as it was supposed to be. An emptiness engulfed my heart which i never had the answer to. I can't put my mind on any kind of work and can't put the smile on my face as allmight taught me no matter how hard i try today. I would have done PMO if it was Oct 2019 but i won't. I have to deal with my emotions as i can't just run away from them. I know this phase will pass. More of the reason i can't let Urge army conquer me again. Trying me best to get my head straight spartans. Good luck with your path and dont let any instance, any mood, any rejection stop you. The moment you give in "The Ashura" smiles and put you back to day 0. Good luck
Wolf, Thank you for advice. But I should probably clarify that I was not seeking any. Just attempting to explain why my updates are terse.
Day 37 check-in! Wow!! Gotta say I'm kinda pleased with myself for this (and that tomorrow will be day 50 overall). I had a proper wobble with myself this morning, nut in relation to pmo but just a bad mood for no real reason at all. Actually, that's a lie.. the reason was I'd got irritated by the amount of shit that needed sorting out and that my idea for breakfast hasn't worked out (our anniversary today). And then I continued being annoyed at the fact I was annoyed lol. I've realised that would have been a trigger to pmo to relieve the tension, but really just delayed getting things done meaning I had less time and actually get more frustrated by it all. And so the downward cycle would go. Today, I've realised I didn't even think about pmo'ing. Just had a but if time away from it all, and came back to it n got started. End of the day now and I've achieved, and feel good.
I am pleased to be on this path with you and have found a lot of motivation and inspiration through your posts. You will make an excellent God of War!
DAILY CHECK IN There are people out there who are already married and still they are facing problem due to this addiction . If we talk to some stupid teenager and ask him why the hell you are watching porn and fapping ? He will say that i want to have sex right now but since i dont have any partner to perform with , therefore i am satisfying my needs with fapping . OK , That same teenager if after few years of addiction gets married to some women , at early stages they will enjoy sex , but as the time will pass by that man due to this habit will again come back to porn . Now ask him , now you have a partner , you can have sex with her , now what is your problem ? Why the hell you are watching porn again ? He will say that my partner doesnt do those stuff which i tell her to do , and i dont find her attracted anymore and since porn is having many pornstars he can go like this forever and will never get bored of it . Porn is the problem guys , masturbation comes after it . If we dont stop now , you will be ruining 2 lives , one is yours and the second one is of your partner . What is her fault ? what she has done to get a jerk like you as her husband ? Porn actress doesnt equal to other women . What you see it totally fantasies and not reality , stop right now and your future self will thank you for today's decision . Rest we all are gonna make choices and will have to face the consequences . So choose wisely and choose good . You can live the life you always wanted , just quit this habit of watching porn and your whole life will get sorted . Please dont ruin it , human life is the greatest form of living thing , our primary goal is to reproduce but it doesnt have to be like this . Save yourself you idiot , or time will pass on and you will only and only have regrets in your death bed . There is a lot to live for other than this shit we call PORN.
Yes. This sounds true for me. I am reclaiming my true self. Burning away the garbage that has accumulated over the years. It’s a renewal process. It is glory and freedom!