Day 4/30 No PM (June) Day 497 at attempting this challenge Day 177 weigh training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: No caffeine, no alcohol and reduced desserts
Oh I totally got that part! Sorry, I didn't communicate what I meant very well. I actually teared up a bit when I read what you said, not because I felt hurt but because I could sense the passion with which you believe the TRUTH that I am beautiful and awesome and I need to share it with the world. It struck such a deep chord in me that I couldn't quite articulate how I was feeling. Instead of "harsh" I should have said "passion"! Your words were passionate. Also, I didn't feel that passion so much directed AT ME. Instead, I felt it was directed AGAINST THE LIE that I am ugly and have no value. I felt very deeply that you were fighting FOR ME and standing WITH ME when you said those words. Don't worry, you have already inspired me many times!
Day 4/90 Total clean days - 13 Total relapse - 2 Total hours remaining - 2064 Urges are hard to tackle. As I have come near to my previous streak urges are getting strong. I won't relapse and start from zero. I have relapsed 1000 times and I won't go through day 0 to 1 again. One look at porn and I will relapse so it's getting tricky now.
You're welcome! Mark Queppet has tons of very useful free videos on his YouTube channel. This video really hit home with me, it was posted in this thread by @bromor two weeks ago:
13 days no pmo. Had a close call last night, woke up in the middle of the night and started playing with myself without really having my bearings. Stopped after a short time and realized I’m practicing hard mode. Sometimes this leads to a bit of edging, but avoided that last night. Does anyone else have that experience in the middle of the night where you wake up and are still foggy and the mind just takes over before you get your wits about you? Anyway, didn’t feel like a reset or relapse but also worth noting and trying to avoid. Good luck everyone.
