Fantastic, brother! I would urge you to focus, not on bigger urges (sure they do get bigger at times), but on developing yourself as a wholesome individual. There is plenty of ways to do this.
Day 25 I am spending the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl Truly PMO forces are lurking in the area because the urges are strong today!
Wednesday Brain fog is rather bad today. I've had much trouble focusing. A lot of trouble with distraction. I am trying to dig deep. I am someone who can overcome adversity. Today I am trying to remember that and live it out. today I have: cold showered, prayed, meditated, eaten healthy, taken walks. I got up at 6:30, which may be part of my brain fog since I went to bed well after 11pm. But, the silver lining there is that I should be ready to hit the sack at a decent time tonight! Till next time, Fellows.
Day 127. Feeling strong today as well. I have been sleeping really well and feel settled into my life. Keeping my eyes forward and my feet moving!
Day 1 finished. Had 2 instances where I almost gave into the urges. Didn't fish though. Soon I'll be past this chaser!
Day 3 complete! The day started off with a beautiful run. Exhausting and lengthy, but well worth it. From there it's been a whole lot of ups and downs. I don't want to go into details, but it's been an emotionally challenging day. The urges tried to take advantage of that. I didn't let them. PMO would have been the negative icing on the negative cake. There's no place in my life for those consequences.
10 days. Most is well. Had the best conversation with my dad I have ever had last night. Actually felt like I connected with him. It was awesome. God please remove this poison of pmo. It stole so much from me. It stole me from my family and friends.
Day 90! 90 days without fishing, obsessing, depression, unwanted fantasies, social anxiety, lack of motivation, suicidal thoughts, horrible sleep, ducking responsibilities, ignoring self-care. 90 days of freedom, motivation, laughter, exercise, connection, facing my problems, loving myself, building the life I want to live. There is still a ring to destroy, and many dangerous monsters along the way, but the Flame of Anor will protect me. Onward to Mordor, and to the rest of my life.