AUGUST CHALLENGE

Something was working, now it's not - waiting for some more help, but shouldn't be long.

 

Im in too

 

i am in.lets do this.

 

I'M IN! I'm doing this for me, I've made the decision to get clean and get to that side!

 

I love real social dynamic

 

I failed day 2 :/

 

New to nofap and am in

 

Right here, and in. Looking forward to another thread to vent and cope. Good luck to all on 30 days.

 

I'm In.

 

Im in for sure!!

 

Me too. Gl everyone!

 

I'm in guys!
Currently on my 11th day without PMO. Tomorrow i'll overtake my former best streak! Motivations at maximum!
Let's make this August memorable.
God Bless!

 

you rock, sir!

 

Fail start to the August challenge

I relapsed today after 25 days without porn and 23 days without masturbation

... and I feel stupid. Mostly because it was so close.
I will tell you guys how I struggled and failed today. I need advice, please!

I came back from vacation yesterday. My girlfriend was eager to see me again. She cooked for me, we had a great evening and we slept together.
After we woke up very late she didn't want to do anything but to watch TV. I didn't feel much motivation either so we both watched a comedy movie despite the hot weather.
It were the depiction of two model-like girls which allured me. And now I realise that it was not only for their good-looking but the way they were shown which was quite similar to porn (even if they were dressed).
Then while my gf got ready to go outside my fantasy went on a killing spree.
It killed all my resolutions, all my good reason and soon the decision was made. I decided against my will to watch porn. I wasn't drunk or anything. There's no such excuse. I was thinking it through:
On one hand I hadn't reached my 30 day goal yet (neither full august). I'd have to begin from the start.
On the other hand I already made it so far. And one fap wouldn't kill all my progress...
I also thought about just MO to avoid P. I wish I would have done that.

Somehow I managed to get a cold shower. And that mend it with me. But an hour later I sat before the screen and opened an "old friend" a certain porn site. I observed my reaction. Only to be on the site quickens my pulse immensely. I thought: 'that should be enough'. Just to go there again but not escalate further. So I closed the site and came to our forum. I began to write a post. It did good to write about it. I felt this incredible fucking huge energy inside me and I wanted to do sport outside and work myself into the ground. But I didn't, instead I relapsed.
I don't even remember the last step anymore. I've teetered on a knife's edge and fell to the wrong side.

I'm not depressed or angry now but I'm kind of disappointed. I feel like being betrayed by myself.
I didn't need much material to pmo and it was all quite "usual". So at least I have no new pics or stuff in my mind that I might want to see again. Also I'm still proud of myself since I was abstinent for the longest time I can remember.
Nevertheless it's a setback. I made progress but I have no start my reboot anew.
There are many things which I could have done to avoid the relapse but in fact I think I wanted to relapse.
What can I do?

[my gf knows about me liking porn and about me doing NoFap. She's really cool. In her opinion I should go "happy medium". But I want to quit the fucking porn and not stop halfway.]

 

Okay here it is!

Macro-Enabled Version:
This version uses advanced code in Excel. I used this to update Worksheet names automatically, based on your start date. It will prompt you to enable, or not enable the macros, because macros could be used to hold malicious code. The code I've used, to the best of my knowledge, only works within the file, and simply updates the names of the worksheets within the file, depending on data you enter in the sheet.
http://www.filehosting.org/file/details/501298/HabitCessation.xlsm

Standard Excel:
The same as the above, but the Worksheets have static names. If you're unsure about allowing the Macros to run, simply use this version. It does everything else, but the sheet names are "Year" "Month01" "Month02" and so on, instead of "2015-16" "Aug-15" "Sep-15" etc.
http://www.filehosting.org/file/details/501299/HabitCessation.xlsx

 

Good going, buddy!

 

Here's my August stats so far!

Spoiler: Stats Screenshot

 

i am on day 0 again. but i have learned from the mistakes. i am still in high hope that i can still make it clean till the end of the month. i can usually last for 5 or 6 days but this time i am confident that i can beat it. the NoFap community are really motivating and helpful.

 

All you need is that 1 big streak to breakthrough out of the rut! You can do it man, just keep making adjustments! Always strive to do better and always attempt!

 

im in august challenge. sign me up!