447 days SR 48 days no sex Girls: yesterday the girl I was seeing at the gym,sensed I wanted to be just friends and somehow end up telling me she wanted to be just friends too. Thank goodness I didn’t have to tell her, she even cried. Why I don’t masturbate or ejaculate One of the main reasons I don’t masturbate is that when I do I feel I’ve been defeated by lust, I lose my face to women, I need to be in a high place energetically and psychologically to deal with women and life in general, if I gave in to pleasure it means women have the power of sex over me, I become inferior to their superior sexual power, which they already have, women according to eastern teachings have ten times more sexual energy than men and most of them can easily live without sex or masturbation for years or have sex for hours or days straight. I don’t like to be inferior to women this is a step prior to be dominated by a woman. Also sexual energy is one of the most powerful forces we have if you lose it to PMO or being a sex machine you become weak and you need energy to do anything in life specially if you want to be a superior man. I have dealt with so many beautiful and crazy girls, always trying to pick the most high quality one, I think a regular man will be crazy by now, traumatized or at least a little beat down because of this, I’ll be in such a bad place if I haven’t dealt with girls with a detached mind, seeing sex as meditation. The moment I lose my streak it doesn’t mean just losing a streak which is just a number at the end of the day, it means that I’m in a mental state again in which appearances and pleasure cloud my thinking, not relapsing means a permanent fixed understanding of what sexual energy is. Conclusion: NoFap needs to create a clear understanding of your sexuality and pleasure, aiming to destroy any relapses.
This is amazing. I have been struggling as well and after reading your post I’m giving up porn. For good.
Day zero, but I’m not looking back anymore. I’m telling myself now that today will be the last and final day of porn.
We can do this together! I too am on day 0 (at least for another 45 minutes), so I promise you this, I will keep myself accountable on here everyday, and I promise to post on here when I am struggling if you do the same. We can do this! Best, Mathman1994
i feel some weird sensation in my balls... i want to sleep tonight, not give in to the temptation. temptation is part of the recovery, giving in to it is not. i shall be free.
I have just masturbated but I haven't used porn I was just unable to control the urge so I just did it but no porn starting again day 0 but next time I wont masturbate also feeling good that I haven't use porn and feeling bad that I masturbated