Stand up my friend, you've made a great streak before and not all your progress is lost. Rekindle what pushed you forward before and dig into that again.
Me too brother, I enjoy the cooler air after a long time of heat. Now we can move faster, do more and not sweat that much !
Day 13 or 14! Time is passing really quick and distractions still have a hold on me. I've restarted meditation, but it's probably going to take a while until I get back into the groove. Still not feeling like France is the place for me to live, but I'll just let those thoughts in the backlog until June.
Day 213 no PMO. Went to the lake today and was disappointed. Rain, wind and a cold front rolled in and we had to head home. Other than that it was a good day.
Most of what I said in my last post was true and I went straight to bed (but forgot to feel good feelings instead I just thought too much until falling to sleep) BUT what I didn't mention was, that before yesterday night I had already relapsed during the day. And the craving that I resisted was to go on one of the p-sites again, that I had still in my browser history ... Of course I reset my counter now.
Urges were hitting like hailstones [lot of them] . Then I ran to the bathroom and poured cold water on my testicles. Try it next time you get an urge. The best urge killer according to me.
Feel a bit weird today .Wasn't working out but practiced the way to put barbell down on the lower hooks in case of going to failure and managed to drop empty bar(20 kg) on my neck. Feel a bit weird but can speak and breath rather normally. Good thing I'm quite happy about -I'm still alive , for it could have been much worse. Done meditation and a lot of DIY . Somehow that diy felt like being busy instead of productive. In other words I did a lot of unnecessary low value tasks while procrastinating on important stuff and thus it has been a wasted day for me.
Finding the joy of the streak One important point is finding the joy of doing semen retention, of no PMO If you are simply forcing yourself to make a streak then eventually you'll fail. You are going to put your guard down at some point because you are stressed out, tired, lazy... I have enjoyed every single day of this 500+ streak and to be honest many days I was lazy and didn't do any special meditation, sports or anything. I just like doing semen retention. You need to find the joy in it. Then there is no effort.
Checking in. As part of my revised reboot strategy, I will keep a checklist of some tasks that I should do ideally everyday in order to power my reboot with sound habits. I got the idea from the semen retention challenge devised by one of our brothers here in the fellowship, @Slider8 These are the following four tasks that I will start out with: Spoiler 1. Physical exercise. (Done, took some walks since I feel to weak for anything more intense after my relapses) 2. Meditation. (Done, only 5 min but it counts ) 3. Study about reboot. (Done, listened to a podcast episode featuring Gary Wilson) 4. Eat with moderation. (Done, two reasonable sized meals in a 6 h window)