0/90 MO, no P. Lost my will-power at night, probably because I was a little sleep-deprived and my body is also adapting to a new homeostasis due to improved lifestyle choices. Finding the right sleep balance has been one of my hardest challenges recently. Increased energy + trying to fit too much in one day = not enough sleep, which in turn can lead to poor decisions and decreased will-power. Still figuring it out. Onward and upward!
No M or O: Short term= Day 1/7 Long term= Day 1/49 (start 29th August 2022 *end= 17 Oct 2022) No P: Day 1/30 (start 29th August 2022)
26/94 Had a headache today due to having to wake up extra early. Headaches are a big trigger for PMO for me. In the past, if I had a headache I would tend to purposefully fantasize in order to distract from the discomfort. But today I did not fantasize. I just took Tylenol and got through the day.
Mate, Past feelings rushed in, a lot of work stress and got bamboozled by the mind. Multiple triggers overpowered the determination. I wish I could go back in time and undo the act. Nevertheless, a new voyage to embark on and a stronger me. Stay strong mate. You are doing well.
Thanks for the encouragement man. It has been a very long time though, I wasn't addicted to real Porn (but I was to M) or I can say I hadn't even watched hardcore porn at that time. I was just doing M to normal stuff like soft porn or images. But horrible things started after that and I got really badly addicted to PMO. And it has been 19 years after that, total 25 years of addiction. I need to leave this PMO forever. I have lost everything in my life because of the dungeon it creates in your mind you know.
0/99 I was on a business trip and made it the first day and a half without any problems. I made it to last night and got back to my hotel and allowed myself to fall to those thoughts and temptations. I should have kept myself distracted but I didn’t. I did learn from this, though. I need to have a plan or I’m going to be in trouble.
It was very tough, when the mind isnt occupied and the work stress does take a toll leaving vulnerable to those thoughts. A lesson learnt, a new chapter to write now. Stay strong mate.
Day 0/17. It's been a while. I recently had a 9-day streak, but blew it (no pun intended) and am trying to gain momentum back.