Day 34 Started a new job last Monday. Just now got in the training modules and it doesn't seem to difficult. I think my concentration and memory are better from no PMO.
Day 57 completed. I have come to my native place today and am gonna stay here for 10 days. The people are triggering and conservative so it's 100 times more difficult than my home environment. Also, I have no privacy here, am always gonna be surrounded by people and their opinions on every random thing. And in a cpl days I'll have to meet a dude's family, with whom my family have talked for my marriage -- they say I can always say no, but the pressure is real. I am trying to keep a calm and composed head, it will be an achievement if I don't lose my shit in an environment as triggering as this and the kinda events I have to face. I will try my best. I will try to keep a calm mind regardless of all the attacks and everything, regardless of my past with em, regardless of the dynamic, or whatever. Because panic does no good, and am better off in a calm mind.
This is a great test of the coping skills you have learned. Imagine how great the feeling will be when you look back afterwards and see that you succeeded. You will definitely be next level after this event is over. I'd wish you luck but I know you don't need it because you are prepared for this and know just what to do my freind. Keep us posted on your progress.
Thank you so much for your kind words which I very much needed to hear. I'll just breathe and do the best I can. I'll keep y'all posted.
Hey everyone going strong here today. Felt a little anxious earlier cause I wanted to get more stuff done around the house even though it is raining but I have come to terms with whatever gets done gets done. Gonna go watch the football game with my wife and son in an hour and then we can get some other stuff done after. Stay strong everyone!
Hey everyone! Things are going well today and I am thankful for my sobriety. That's one thing I am reflecting on more and more. Be grateful for the days you are clean and it helps sustain each day. Then focus on accomplishing objectives during the day with that mentality. So far today I've gone to church with my family, went to grocery store, cleaned up things for my business, and played with my son while watching a football game. All of those things are more rewarding than pornography. Still have a workout to do and painting some trim in our basement. Stay strong everyone!
Day 01 checking in. I'm not going to give up, that word doesn't exist in my dictionary. It's time to move on to plan B. From now on, as a way to keep my focus, I will do 100 sit-ups every time I fail. At the end of the month I will have had a lot less relapses, or I will have got abs of steel, that's what I call a win-win.
