Post published by Blessed Saiyan

Speaking with God this morning I’ve had a sort of breakthrough that I would like to share about my porn addiction and why I feel I can’t break away from it. Porn for me has become a refuge of sorts, whenever I feel mad, stressed, tired, or whatever PMO has been my go to. And it’s gotten to the point where PMO is something I thought about everyday. I’ve learned that PMO has actually taken the place of God. In those moments when I’m feeling those emotions and even my day to day life when I engage and think about PMO I should be engaging and thinking about God. Of course I want to stop this and let God replace this but I have to surrender. But I can’t surrender to God because I’m scared to let PMO go. And after contemplating this all day I’ve began reading the book of Job, one where we are shown what it looks like to surrender in our suffering and lean only on God, nothing else. Now that I know this I have to take that first step. (Prayers are needed and appreciated)