Post published by EyesfortheHoly

It's crazy. When I got saved in 2003 I was delivered from porn completely. Six months after I got married, 3 years after I was saved, I went into my office to pray and was alone with my computer. I had never looked at porn on the interned before but I had heard about it. That day I was tempted and searched for porn on the internet and quickly found what I was looking for. For about three hours I just looked at images without acting out. I was trying to resist but I couldn't find the strength to turn my computer off. Eventually I did masturbate and entered into this horrible darkness. I have prayed and prayed about this issue, I've fasted, read my bible, talked to other believers about it, and yet it is still destroying me. There have been times where I have been suicidal because of this garbage. I don't understand why it is so hard for me to resist as I hate it and I know it's a cancer to everything that is good in my life. Please pray for me. This struggle needs to be overcome now.