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Today I have fallen to temptation. To masturbation. I am grateful for my sin, for Ive been taught how there is no pleasure in sin, only pain and loss of control. For around an hour I lost control and compulsively did the above. I thank God for he kept me safe from pornography, previously this has been the addition to masturbation which has made the painful cycle notoriously hard to break. The surrender to the will of Satan and decision to masturbate was not made earlier today but yesterday evening following 2 days of struggling with temptation. My sprit told me to share but my pride told me I don't need too. Give it another day. This was my first mistake, my second was not sharing when I returned home and my 3rd testing myself expecting not to masturbate when I let the lustful thoughts roam free in my mind. The Lords will is beautiful and I thank him for this lesson, I pray I head his words and I have faith a life free from POM is possible. More faith than I did yesterday but less faith than I will have tomorrow. When I allow my spiritual wellbeing to go below the marker I allow my carnal mind to wage war and destruction on my serenity. I have not lost today only forgot the truth, there is no win or loose, no win or not sin only surrender. I pray I am forgiven and I will learn from this. I thank you all for being hear for I can not do this alone. But together we can. God bless x