Post published by Mystery Man
Today is the first day I actually noticed some benefits from NoFap. It is currently day 6.
There has been a shift in the way I desire porn. What I mean is, porn no longer is my idol. I would worship it and pray to it. I say that because I would spend more time in PMO then I would with the Lord. There is feeling of freedom in a sense.
If I am honest and say do I miss it? For sure. Am I afraid I would relapse hard? 100%. Do I feel better after 6 days without it? No... I think the reason is there is a big part of me that feels the most amount of intimacy and affection that I have been wired to believe for 20 years that I get from it. I know it's so messed up but other than God atm there really isn't anything else.
But in summary and on a positive note, there is a SHIFT, and it is the fact that it isn't my big idol in my life.
Also can I ask, does anyone seem to get like psoriasis or dandruff by doing heaps of pmo? I noticed that I do. Could be due to zinc depletion?
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StillGoing129
Its good to hear the progress you are making. Keep it up mate! I figure that we need to pour more of God's Word, his presence and other good stuff to outweigh all the crap that we have poured into ourselves over the years. Even though spiritually, God forgives and we can immediately begin getting closer to God, it takes time for the brain, thoughts and desires to catch up to what we trying to do. Be blessed, your journey is a blessing to read!
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Walk_it_out
You are pressing into new territory! You're on the right path. Even with all the weeds and rocks..You are forging a new path and a new way of thinking. It's awesome..I know that fear you speak of. A fear of falling and relapsing. I know it's big but I would like to suggest to advert your eyes from the fear as soon as you can. Like teach your thought process to look away from it and to Jesus..I'm seeing it is so powerful. Like Peter looked at the storm and was afraid to fall. In that moment he actually did start to fall because he focused on the fear. By faith we can slay this giant of fear. So much grace in it. Anyways bless you bro!
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Mystery Man
Thank you all. I am so blessed to be here with you guys. Another great thing I am feeling for the first time is security in my salvation. I know many people say onced saved always saved but I don't believe that.when I am in the darkest places of my sin being so sexual immoral, I feel so distant from God. It is only by asking for forgiveness and repentance that I feel his presence again. I would always be fearful if I missed the rapture or was in a fatal accident without repenting my sin. Since being clean I feel closer to God like never before
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