Gentleman WriterDreamer
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Struggling Writer and full time Dreamer

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Gentleman WriterDreamer

Fapstronaut, Male, 31, from Wyoming

Help I am so depressed right now that I can hardly breath. :( Nov 19, 2015

Gentleman WriterDreamer was last seen:
Nov 21, 2015
    1. Hailz
      Hailz
      Miss you and hope everything is okay :)
    2. SerpentEagleHeart
      SerpentEagleHeart
      Miss you too GWD!
      1. NoBrainer likes this.
    3. NoBrainer
      NoBrainer
      Hey bro, where'v you gone?
      1. SerpentEagleHeart, Kurapika 2 and M L like this.
    4. aakkss
      aakkss
      Hey, GWD, where are you? How are you? Last seen on 11th june. Is everything alright.
      1. SerpentEagleHeart and M L like this.
      2. aakkss
        aakkss
        Hey @M L do you have any ideas where GWD is?
        Jun 20, 2015
      3. M L
        M L
        I'm sorry, I dont:( I left a comment on his journal the other day, but I don't think he has been on since. Come back, GWD - we miss you x
        Jun 21, 2015
    5. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Doing fine on staying clean from PMO, but sadly not doing great on life right now, hopefully this can change soon.
      1. Josef Wangberg likes this.
      2. Gilbert
        Gilbert
        Congrats on the abstaining front. Hope things improve for you soon ):
        Jun 4, 2015
      3. Blondewife
        Blondewife
        Sorry you are having a hard time but congratulations on staying clean. That's something to rejoice about! :)
        Jun 4, 2015
    6. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Okay I am back, learned some things and made some good and bad choices in the process. Here is to the best run yet!. . . I hope.
      1. Nithin Adarsh
        Nithin Adarsh
        Good luck doc! :D jk
        May 28, 2015
      2. Open Parasol
        Open Parasol
        You can do it!
        May 29, 2015
    7. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      And had a small slip but for once in my life I kept it small and did not go into full binge mode. So one step forward two steps back
      1. Nithin Adarsh and PotentLife like this.
      2. SerpentEagleHeart
        SerpentEagleHeart
        binge mode is not the end of the world. it's a set back but it's really fine. if you think about it, before nofap you were constantly in binge mode!
        Jun 28, 2015
    8. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Really struggling with urges brought on from some depression, hate using this as a way to feel better because it only makes it worse after.
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      3. arturo111
        arturo111
        I love push ups to. And jumping on a rope. Sport bro! Struggle with your urges with sport.
        May 25, 2015
      4. Gentleman WriterDreamer
        Gentleman WriterDreamer
        Thank you for the support : ) I need to try to get back into the habit of working out. I did sit ups for the first month I was on Nofap and that was my longest streak thus far so maybe its worth doing again for luck and health.
        May 25, 2015
      5. arturo111
        arturo111
        Before my last relapse i have been clean 7 monts and still with ed:( i have 2 much relapses in my life... So, you must to be strong. Because, with every relapse you make black holes in you brain. And you need more, and more time for reboot that holes...
        May 25, 2015
    9. Nithin Adarsh
      Nithin Adarsh
      Whoz that in ur avatar bro? Looking good!
      1. Gentleman WriterDreamer
        Gentleman WriterDreamer
        Thank you that is Matt Smith the 11th Doctor from the Sci Fi series Doctor Who. Love this image so much, Matt has such caring eyes.
        May 25, 2015
      2. arturo111
        arturo111
        What is avatar?
        May 25, 2015
    10. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      So had a slip yesterday but on the plus side today is my Cat's 16th birthday! So yaay Happy birthday Boots! Aww such a good Golden cat.
      1. Nithin Adarsh, Anne-Dauphine and M L like this.
      2. IGY
        IGY
        Sorry to hear that (slip). Aww, I love cats. Bless him!
        May 23, 2015
      3. Nithin Adarsh
        Nithin Adarsh
        Convey my wishes to him buddy!
        May 24, 2015
    11. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Okay K9 and new counter set, here is hoping I have more luck this run. I guess that is my one virtue, the stubbornness to keep fighting.
      1. HippyMinstrel likes this.
    12. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      And so close to 10 days and I slip again, I really have no idea what is wrong with my willpower these days :/
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      2. arturo111
        arturo111
        I never have problems with gaming bro, just with porn, but i'm a hard core seer... With ED and depresion, long time ago. Whatever, i wish you all the best and be strong bro! Believe in yourself and keep going! With love, Arturo
        May 22, 2015
      3. Gentleman WriterDreamer
        Gentleman WriterDreamer
        Thanks man the support is greatly appreciated. ": ) Type 1 Diabetes and depression are added problems for me truly but hopefully once I can beat PMO addiction it will help to take the edge off the depression and so that I can have a greater ability to focus on taming my diabetes. Best of luck on your journey as well.
        May 22, 2015
      4. arturo111
        arturo111
        Thx bro, thank you very much. All the best
        May 22, 2015
    13. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Doing a little better today, got to talk with some good friends and wrote some on my book. Really touched to know such caring people : )
      1. Anne-Dauphine likes this.
    14. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Made it through another night, I will try to have faith that my hope will return with the light of dawn. Thank you all for your kindness
      1. Nithin Adarsh
        Nithin Adarsh
        It will bro!! :))))
        May 19, 2015
    15. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Feeling like even if I beat PMO I will still not be able to beat the problems my diabetes is giving me. : (
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      2. Knight Solaire
        Knight Solaire
        I'm sorry you have to deal with such things. My BPD makes me impulsive and makes me feel every emotion 10 fold. It hurts me everyday and causes me react and hurt others. I have such a bad self image that I don't think I can ever feel I can beat what it puts me through, but here I am buddy.
        May 19, 2015
      3. Knight Solaire
        Knight Solaire
        We can do this. We have stayed strong this long and I doubt we will faultier now. I will stand by your side till the finish line.
        May 19, 2015
      4. Gentleman WriterDreamer
        Gentleman WriterDreamer
        Thank you so much for the words of encouragement and compassion, they were greatly needed and truly welcome. :')
        May 19, 2015
    16. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Really close to that 5 day mark now, people here are so kind it makes me cry : ) I am so happy that I am able to be apart of this site.
      1. Nithin Adarsh
        Nithin Adarsh
        Good luck bro and keep up! :)
        May 17, 2015
      2. Open Parasol
        Open Parasol
        You've got this, friend! We believe in you!
        May 17, 2015
    17. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      And another day finished and another victory to take pride in. New game plan in working well. : )
    18. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      "You need to believe in things that aren't true. How else can they become?" Death from Discworld quote : )
      1. Kurapika likes this.
    19. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Really love this website and want to help. I am trying to work up the courage to tell my folks about my addiction so that I can go premium.
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      2. Administrator Account
        Administrator Account
        Please don't out yourself on the account of the site financials! It is a highly personal journey and I do think that telling your close friends and family could be helpful, but only when you feel ready to do it.

        Recovery from PMO reconnects you with the human beings in your life. Connecting to them during reboot can be a very powerful tool - but again, only when you feel that it will benefit you directly.
        May 10, 2015
      3. Gentleman WriterDreamer
        Gentleman WriterDreamer
        Thank you for the support I will try to feel out what is the best course of action. I know that my folks would be very understanding and loving but I worry that my mom will blame herself somehow, just like the way I know that she blames her self for my diabetes. Even though I have never been over wight in my life and Type 1 diabetes is a genetic problem.
        May 11, 2015
    20. Gentleman WriterDreamer
      Gentleman WriterDreamer
      It's day one of the rest of my life I'm marching on to the beat of a brand new drum Yeah, here I come The future has begun Day one
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    Gender:
    Male
    Birthday:
    May 25, 1990 (Age: 31)
    Location:
    Wyoming
    Occupation:
    Struggling Writer and full time Dreamer
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    'These are my Days, hard fought and well earned, and I will not lightly surrender them to the siren song of Addiction. And I vow that as my Days grow in number I shall make of them metaphoric bricks, that I might use those to construct my road to recovery."

    90+ Days Free of MO
    Last looked at P End of October

    Link to view Journal - Gentleman's Journal of Hope Regret and learning to live in the Moment
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