The human failure

Well I'm never going to get better, but this is the only place that I can communicate with other people so I don't want to leave.

I had an episode on their chat room. I don't really feel like doing Nofap anymore tbh.

Don't be discouraged. I faced some drama recently regarding NoFap as well and at that point I felt like, this be damned, it's not worth it... etc, but all it took were posting some comments, getting some likes, and reaching out to good people who took my hand. :D keep at it bro

Lord Gwyn, you must not let the flames fade away. As Ajar said, this hatred and deppresion is being fueled by the porn. Don't let the flame consume you.

Feel it. And hate masturbation...because that's what your whole life will be if you don't destroy it now. I just relapsed too. Fuck man...

Thanks! I'll read this after I sleep. It's getting late >.<

Now if only I knew how to cook xD

Alright, be sure to read it tomorrow.
Haha, you will learn, if you want to. I don't even know how to cook and I still eat basically according to that list (only for me it's even stricter because I have to avoid gluten). It's possible, it just takes some getting used to.

Yeah, there are PMs.

how might i do that?

Click the person's name then "Start a conversation"

And college is not worth the damage that vaccines can wreak on your system, or mainstream medicine, or junk food, or toxic chemicals from any source.

Listen to hisoka4, she really has your best interests at heart. Your life is more than this and you have the choice to pick whatever path you want, college is not for everyone. Do what ever makes you happy, not what saddens you. Life is here to be enjoyed.

Thanks Rapparee for supporting what I'm trying to do here, and yes Lord of Cinders Gwyn do whatever makes you happy. Not just short-term happy from PMO or eating junk food, but what really makes you feel happy and fulfilled.

I meant to but I forgot. >.< Sorry

That's okay if you forgot, but still watch it. Please. Or read that link, it's more straight to the point.

Not sure if I already posted this or not but I just wanted to reaffirm it for myself.

do what u want, but i will miss u. die from killing is painful

You know this is not the right path. I've tried myself and can tell you its not. No matter how much you think and feel life is bleak there are shards of light that illuminate the darkness. My advice to you is to grab onto makes your life worth living, not what makes you feel its not.

What Rapparee says is good too, there's always a risk of rejection but that shouldn't deter you from trying. We all get rejected sometimes, it's okay and doesn't mean that there's anything wrong with you. You will find the right girl for you one day. If he can do it, so can you.

Also, you might not want to be worrying about finding a girlfriend yet. A girlfriend won't add any value to who you are as a person than you already have. Personally, I think a good girlfriend is something that the universe/God/whatever you want to call it, will bring to you when the time is right, rather than something you have to make happen. But that's just my theory...

Thanks Hisoka. It means a lot >.<

But the next part of the cycle is going to be better than this one.

Maybe it just needs a little speeding up.

i don't know. i've never tried

But i think him feeling worse than ever on his 7th day streak simply has to do that he has deprived himself of the pleasure that he has received daily for so long, and his brain craves it like crazy. Also, he surely experiences some nasty withdrawal symptoms, which is very normal.

But no one said it'll be easy. It's not easy for me even now, far ahead. I remember when i had the withdrawals, there was a period of maybe 2 months when i had depression like crazy, and i couldn't escape it, and then suicidal thoughts started coming, and my overall health was not good at all. But i muscled through it, and decided that i am not going to give up that easily.

Please, don't get me back here, if you want to discuss this problem again, please write me a PM, because i am sick of this limit of 420 characters.

Well, if you don't have these two, yes it doesn't matter. If you have them, then it's different. I've seen people looking good but lacking those qualities and they get disregarded and it's like they don't exist.

Maybe some of us don't pretend and are more open to the possibility of not just judging someone on the way they look. There are ugly people everywhere no matter what they look like.

They disregard you, because you fap away your life to some bullshit. Man up and they won't hate you.

You sure ? So you prefer to have periods every month and to leak blood for some days, and feel like crap in those days, and then being pregnant for 9 months is surely much cooler than not being. And constantly having to care for that child, well yes, it's fun being a woman.
Come on bro, stop self pitying and get your life together.

Yes I would prefer that.

Be as kind to yourself as you can. There's no point being hard on yourself. Everybody relapses; we're all human. And believe me: it is frustrating. Extremely frustrating. But see the moments after your relapse as an opportunity to deal with it in the best possible way. Be the change you want to see.

what do you feel after relapse? i'm asking cuz i'm very close to relapse right now

Honestly I feel relieved. Relieved and determined to try again.