Day 26 completed. An improvement is that I had a dream where I had sex but the whole time I was trying to make sure that I wasn't doing any PMO along with it. this was unlike the earlier dream in which I gave in to my urges and relapsed. Looks like my subconscious has finally teamed up with my conscious fight against PMO. I feel stronger now. Nevertheless, I'll be cautious and brace up for the upcoming challenges. Also, my brain doesn't feel as foggy, even when I'm on period -- that's a massive difference! Also, congratulations @Servo_Operator and @newtry on completing the 30 day challenge!! Much strength to you to keep moving forward!
I have neglected to post for a few days, but up to day 16 now. Yesterday the urges were so strong! In fact there were times last night where I just couldn’t think of anything other than certain videos/performers. But, I tried to just remind myself how shit it would feel after giving in to those thoughts and I managed to go the day without engaging. I don’t know if I can say I’m proud of myself yet - it feels like a real battle and I guess I’m also being hard on myself for even thinking about porn still. I shouldn’t be, and given that I’m 35 and porn has been a part of my life for maybe 20 years, I need to expect to be tested like this often!
