Day 0 - Nazgûl I suppose I got over confident, or maybe stress got to me. But yesterday was a real mess. I was supposed to move to my new apartment, but then everything went to hell and after posting yesterday, my day went well until I was watching the olympics, and I went to look up whether one of the gymnasts had medaled and I saw a p-sub. Anyway, I could have stopped there, but I did not. I looked at more of the photos (as the p-subs were of a former gymnast in a bikini) and then I found nudes. At that point I knew I had to reset, and a part of me thought, "well, if you already reset to porn, why not have a full PMO session?" So I did. Anyway, now I am on day 0 until midnight tonight, and then onward and upward. Best, Mathman1994
34 days Dreamed about relapsing again and the urges are maximal. I hope you guys doing better than me
Relapsed hard… Could not sleep two nights ago, spent two hours just trying to hold myself from relapsing, and in the end I’ve broken down. Got up and PMO twice and then fell asleep. I’ve woken up feeling like shit and then started a binge that really took all of my energy. There a million other things I can say about it, but i don’t even have the energy to write this post. I’m just sad and sorry.
63 days. Had some subtle stomach pains and pressure over my chest yesterday. Think that maybe I've been working too much and not eating healthy enough (I indulged in too much snacks on both Saturday and Sunday). But otherwise a good and fairly productive day. Did some walking during the day and some bodyweight exercises in the evening. Still feel stressed and slightly restless but I think that's calming down.
Checking in. Everything going good, I'm back at dating. I've dated a beautiful blonde some days ago, I'm a little hesitant about her specially because she likes to party a bit too much and is somewhat quiet, but she is a good girl nonetheless. There are some other girls I would like to meet before choosing another girlfriend. I can withhold sex much better now and see girls beyond the physical aspect so this helps me to choose and see the girl beyond her looks, it makes choosing a right girl more easy and it saves me a lot of time and trouble.
Day 33 Feeling well and happy. Now I am realizing that how much these P M and O are dangerous. When I was doing them at that time I felt I am not in my senses now I am feeling that slowly slowly my senses are returning. It totally stops the brain from thinking about moral values means the ability of thinking what is right and what is wrong you lose it and you become the slave of pmo. It slowly and gradually destroy your body from inside and finally it makes you a zoombie. So protect yourselves from this trap.
Day 162 no PMO. Good day yesterday. No urges at all. Spent the day floating down the river with my wife and kids. So relaxing. Today I fly across the country and spend a few nights away from my family so this will be a test for me but I think I’m ready.
Reset. Still not taking this really serious :-/ Much to overthink but little time for writing. Day 0 CU!
The strongest can fall Yesterday I visited an old friend he was one of the strongest guys I ever met, big guy and really strong very few people I know could out lift him in the gym in his prime, probably professional open bodybuilders and gold olympic athletes are the few people I've seen in real life that can lift more than him. He's a womanizer to the point girls pay his bills, apartment and car, he was able to handle girls very well, he even used to give me advice on dating . He's a physician too. I didn't see him in 6 months, now he looks horrible, no energy and almost 40 pounds lighter. When he showed me all the girls he's been dating on the phone I knew what was going on. I even noticed he was seeing a trans girl because I saw her picture in a dating app, I also have the suspicion he could be dating men. He's completely lost in pleasure, he wasn't even half the man I knew. He asked me to meet with him to give him some advice to be more focus, he told me he wasn't able to study as before. I knew the problem right away it was the promiscuity, he's very smart and right away he understood the cause of his problem I explained semen retention and non ejaculatory sex, he as a former bodybuilder understood the importance of energy and how this sex addiction was putting him down. He was very thankful Conclusion : if sex is not handle right, it can take down even the most powerful men.
Day 423. Having an urge due to dream I just woke up from. Checked my counter and posting here now. inknow the urge is temporary and will pass. staying strong and keeping committed. I’ve accomplished so much this past year and I’m committed to staying on this path.
daily checking in A little urge appears. Something i put on practice, it is good to reward yourself for reaching a streak you propused. I was thinking on buy a book i want to read, for be reach the 90 days. but i buyed before time so now i have to accomplish yes or yes that streak
Day 29, Longest streak without fishing/PMO. Been keeping extremely active these last four weeks but feeling a bit unstable right now. It will come around again here soon, just a little shook hahaha. Tomorrow I will be a Elf! Thank you Fellowship!