Wow. I am in the 1% here. I don't want to do this. If I reset, I don't want to start a challenge that is less than the one I am currently doing. Oh dear Zeus please help me.
3/21: Spent the day recovering from a hangover.. resisted the urge to MO, somehow this is always strong after a heavy night of drinking.. anyways one day at a time..
Let me tell you, I was just an inch from giving in today. Up until this day I didn’t really know what urges meant. Had this dream last night that included a little bit of intimacy. And it wasn’t to explicit! Couldn’t get the pictures and feeling off my mind even though I tried. At a moment I was sure I was going to relapse. But! I pushed the emergency button, let some time pass. Say a short prayer and all of a sudden it got more distant from me. I still have the pictures from the dream in front of me but it’s just more distant off, can’t explain it in an other way. So now, after working out an hour, I’m gonna treat myself to a fine take away lunch, I deserve it. Have a splendid afternoon and see you guys tomorrow. 16/21 it is!