OK after relaps a few days ago, kind of back on track. Not feeling as good as before the relapse, of course.. But here we go again buddies. Day 2.
Day 0 (Relapse after 7 days strik) I never lose track. I climbed the 7th of this 30th-floor building. I just slipped I'm not dead. I'll take another try with a different stairway. Today, 4th July 2022
Day 16 completed. But I had terrifying dreams where I watched porn, felt guilty about breaking my streak and watched again in avoidance of guilt, and then some hookup. During the dream I actually released in my bed and woke up dead embarrassed. I had to recall my entire day's events to be sure I didn't do any PMO for real and that my streak is still on. Thank goodness, I'm clean. Maybe these dreams are a part of recovery but they seem very tricky. I'll keep pushing through to overcome this phase.