Day 82. Today I will be thinking more about my children, take care of them and learn more how to protect them against watching porn. I find it helpful what Josh McDowell says (size of the problem,1 billion websites, 2/3 of all divorces caused by watching porn plus some more statistics about porn websites):
Forget all that blockers and stuffs, they are second line of defence. You need to have self control. You get self control through resisting urges. Never give in and fight back. If relapsed don't beat yourself up, identify the trigger and prepare for those next time. If you are watching P and MO ing. There are two possible reasons( learnt thru a u tube video) 1. You already feel great and you wanna feel much greater. ( shitty feeling at the end ) 2. You are afraid to face the reality, you have so much work and things to do. And instead of finishing those and getting reward. Your brains is simply lazy and wants a instant gratification . (shitty feeling at the end) So the former is easier to abstain. Imo most people in this community ( incl. me ) suffers from the latter. Face the reality. Identify what you are running away from. Before watching porn, ask yourself why, what am i afraid of.( It's hard, but will work). And best of luck, You can do this!! Helping other members in the community will also help in keeping urself busy.
Thank you sharing your feelings. They really help me to set up some sort of standard for myself. All the best for your long journey.
I think you were spot on .. i do escape from every thing i should be doing and instead i resort to porn. I have never thought about it this way .. thanks mate.
Day 11/90 coming to end. Today no pmo urges or thoughts. Not well from few days so no sleep also. Cheers