Day 88 To all members in this wonderful community. All the effort your putting to become the best versions of yourselves. ITS TIME TO PARTY To all those near to complete there streaks. You efforts have made you great warriors @bromor , @Titu , @discovery , @hermitthefrog , @Pone , and all those I have not mentioned.
hey guys day 15 here , really happy for my dtreak as i had beaten all of my past streaks and this is my longest streak in hardmode and this will be my longest streak coz i will never break it ... ;; so all is well and some urges comes sometime but i overcomes them ;;; my next target is to complete day 18th of my streak and i wwill make it possible ..
Day 18. Congrats to those reaching the end of the challenge, and hurray for those just starting out! All of you help motivate me.
day 57 completed well i watch a video on youtube and it has somethings which is triggering i didn't expect triggering things on that video but as i saw my mind is like going in past and playing the things again which i don't want so i immediately come here and posting this
12/90 Being celibate for 12 days and now I think, wtf have I been doing, O'ing all the time since I was about 12? I've been hooked on this thing called O that I couldn't shake off. I've just accepted it as a desire, an attachment that no mortal man can possibly tackle, otherwise I'll expand like an over-filled water balloon until I explode all over the room! The police, peeling the remains of my flesh from the ceiling as they shake their heads saying to one another "looks like we've got another poor soul who tried to stop masturbating". I'm beginning to realise, I can be free from this attachment calling me back endlessly to O again and again and again (dot dot dot) Hooked on a dopamine hit that I've struggled to go without for more than 7 days since I was a kid and I've acted like it's the most normal thing in the world. I really am starting to wonder.
I'm at the 4-day mark now. I have tried abstinence before, reached a 21-day goal, but then relapsed. Every time I try to rid my self of this habit, I set an end date in mind, and all throughout the journey think of making it to that date, spending every ounce of my energy fighting the urge and the temptation, thinking about how wonderful it'll be to finally start again. I've been approaching this program the wrong way. It's not about when I'll able to pleasure myself again, instead, it's about getting rid of this habit altogether. And so, this time I did not start out with an end date in mind, and I can already tell the difference. I hardly think about it anymore, and when I do, I feel reinvigorated with a strange sense of power that I can't quite explain. I know it's only been 4 days, but I want to feel this way for as long as possible. I don't want to be a celibate, I want to take a wife and have lots of kids, but I will no longer be a slave to my sexual desires.
Day 5/90 Total clean days - 22 Total PMO - 20 Total P - 2 Total hours remaining - 2040 1st Goal - 7 days Days remaining - 2 Goal completed - 0 Getting closer to my first goal not going to blow it. Each day is important and I should be careful. It's the first hurdle of my journey.
