Daily Intention Thread : "Today, I am... + POSITIVE AFFIRMATION"

Today I am doing good, productive things.

 

Today is about over so no reason to relapse

 

Day 19.

Its so important to hit the gym that without it you have so much of energy that filth comes very easy in our mind. Today is Sunday and my gym is closed in the evening so I did my cardio in the morning only. Felt so amazing and all pumped up. When you work out brain goes in emergency mode, it cannot make out the difference between an actual threat and workout regime so its start burning fat when you break a sweat and when you are done your brain gets a feeling that finally the threat is gone so it rewards our system with some harmones like cortisol, dopamine and many more neurotransmitters aka feel good harmones which gives you a relaxed state of mind, a feeling like life is good without a threat, Enjoy life its beautiful. Its not necessary to hit the gym only any type of workout which breaks your sweat will give you the same feeling. Its an amazing way of utilizing the excess energy in our body which if not released builds up in the form of filth. When one has high sexual drive one should release the same by doing some physical exertion.
But I need to develop some habits in which this excess energy can be utilized by using my brain as well. I need to start doing complex mathematics, physics and chemistry in this way I can release my energy by using my brain as well. Back in a day when I was a teenager studying these subjects and every time I got stuck with some problems I remember I got frustrated and instead of solving the problem I chose fapping to porn. Because in that young age when I was overflowing with sexual energy anything which gave me discomfort, porn was always there for an escape. I didn't had this much of wisdom about nofap back then but now I am armed with the power of knowledge. So I need to finish what I started back then, which sadly I gave up cuz I could not handle the energies of my system at that time. I have this complex, this guilt in me that I could not deliver what I was supposed to deliver, this failure has grown a burgeoning tumor of regret in me which has devastated my self confidence and the only practical way which I see possible to develop myself into a responsible human being is by slowly steadily removing all the malign parts of the tumor which are pulling me down, academics being one of them.
I hope I am positive through out, and I am aware that I am gonna meet some really hard times because its difficult to handle such an huge amount of accumulated sexual energy but I am adamant, I am fed with the life of mediocrity and I desire and deserve a happy content and level 10 best version of myself in this life.
The following picture I received from a junior, on whatsapp, hope it gives you an idea about what I am going through. I need help please write any suggestions it will be of great help.

 

Today I am, stronger than I think.

 

Today, I am determined

 

Today, I am truly enjoying sobriety

 

Today I am going to church.

 

Today I see how bad porn really is… you think: what can happen? I just watch and fap. A whole lot can happen!

If I would have just fapped without porn in all my life… That still would've been better. But ultimately, not fapping or Stalking at all would be best I think.

Just be happy with Nothing, that's it. No sexuality whatsoever. Especially not with oneself Loser Feeling.

 

Today I will not watch porn because it destroys my life and I will feel bad about myself when I watch it.

We need to live our life in the real world and not in the world of pixels.

 

Today I am remembering God is in control.

 

that's something I totally agree with.

Watching porn, for me, leads to fantasizing About great successes one future day, the day that will never come cause this shit won't get me anywhere. No more porn! No more porn! Say it with me all together: No more porn!

 

Today, I will forgive myself for the past and start a new future.

 

I will do better today, I will be strong

 

Today I am spending time with friends.

 

Today I wann collect days… But I see People here will only respect me for greatness if I reach a hundred days in a row…

Damn it! Whyyyy do we Things that we don't want to? If we hate porn, why do we indulge in it? Never again for me...

Or at least: 3 weeks or a hundred days with no porn whatsoever! I gotta become better.

 

I went out for some exercise today

 

Why we do things we do not want to? That‘s when our behavior has developed into an addiction, compulsion.

I respect you not for your days but for your decision to take your life back and go for sobriety.

You already are better and eventually when you stay true to that commitment to go for sobriety and do the work you will succeed. Cheers bro.

 

Today, I am showing my respect to all of you guys out there for doing the work, for taking your life back no matter what.

 

Today I am remembering God's presence.

 

Today, I am willing to do what ever it takes to avoid this evil.