Day 14! I actually forgot to do this yesterday. I've noticed that as I keep myself busy, time passes on this journey and my mind focuses less and less on PMO. I still have weak moments here and there but not as many as before. It's been a difficult couple of days. Mentally. Any other time I would have reverted to PMO. But I didn't. So that's a plus. Cheers to another day and big-up to all the other fighters out there!
Day 70. Today is very, VERY disturbing and frightening day. I'm from Russia and something happened in my country today that is impossible to believe — our president start a war with Ukraine. I just can't believe that I'm actually writing this right now. But it is. News are full of anxiety, fear and desinformation. And it's impossible to ignore. I'm really trying to focus on my studies, but I think today it's nearly impossible for me. And of course small signs of my p-addiction is attacking me, again. What is happening in my country today is a terrible test for the whole world. But it is also a test for me — for my will and my ability to resist addiction. Hell of a test. But, you know, I think my 70 days of resistance have given me a truly hell-of-a-Power. So I accept even that challenge. A week earlier I said that we should embrace life in all its manifestations, no matter how good or bad it is. Huh. Well, let's try to stick to that even in moments like these. Wish me luck, friends.
