Day 0 -- Nazgul. Well, nine days clean is longer than I've made it for a while, so I am not without hope after this reset. That's not to say this reset didn't take its toll, though. PMO has simply been part of my lifestyle for a long time, and I had to wrestle with the lies that there's no point in getting rid of it, that I wouldn't know what to do without it, and that it is a fun way to pass the time. These are all thoughts I had leading up to my deliberately choosing to use PMO this afternoon. Both of the past two nights, I had dreams that I relapsed or had made the choice to relapse and was about to act on it. Maybe that was a bad sign, but I was proud of myself for not allowing those temptations to carry over into the waking world. Boredom was a big trigger for me on this last streak, so I will pay special attention to that this time. St. George, pray for us!
Day 56 complete feeling better every day. I wonder how work is going to affect me. I am going to sleep mostly on time. I will go back to working out from tomorrow. It was a great weekend with family. No real urges.
Day 469 no PMO. First day in Vegas is over and I came out just fine. Of course there was temptation everywhere but I bounced my eyes and moved along. I also had another lady start her grooming process with me on LinkedIn but this time I resisted the urge to play along and just blocked her straight away. It felt good to push that block button!
Day 12 as an Uruk-Hai, complete! I couldn't wait for this day to end. The urges have been intense. but i am here. one minute, hour, day at a time. sometimes it can get so tempting that I forget the reasons i am doing this at all. then i remember that my magnificent (addicted) brain is just playing tricks on me and i have to be vigilant especially when I'm having a great day!
Day 1 Relapsed saturday at the afternoon, I was really horny, I was alone and well, relapsed. I have to know me better and go out of the house if something like that happen again. I have a laptop so I can work in any place I want. Keep strong my brothers
Checking in Fellowship Warriors!! 122 days, started the day well with my wim hof breathing/cold shower and it´s working super nicely on keeping my awake and alive during the day. i still feel a bit sleepy and tempted to dive on coffee on the first hours of the day, but i know this is just my sleep patterns disrupted, i need to stabilize my sleeping/waking hour. No urges or temptations. all good. Nothing more to add my friends. Have a great day!!