Tommorrow starts my sunrise to sundown fast for Ramadan. No food or liquid . My friend though not me is Muslim and so I fast with him. Last time I did it we would meet at sundown and have a cup of tea or something. I felt great after the 30 days. I'm eliminating regular coffee completely a and in a couple days all caffeine, also no movies ,t.v. or unnecessary screen time in any form. I'm going to use this 30 days to improve my spiritual ,mental and physical fitness. I will spend more time in reading spiritual literature, meditating, exercising , breathing , enjoying personal relationships and also really focusing on the Serenity Prayer in my day to day life. I intend to stick with this plan and so come out in 30 days with at least a tiny bit of virtue, freedom and joy more than I started with. One day at a time.
77/90. I'm back. Long time no see. We are still doing very well. Well-done everyone. Have a super day
DAY 2/365 I don't know why it happens but I lose the drive or the motivation to continue. I completely forgot to come here and post my update. Honestly, I did not even think of watching porn but I completely forgot about my goal of 365 days challenge. And that's the reason I was failing consistently. I forget why I set up a goal, I forget and lose the drive to continue with that goal and give in to the current feeling of watching porn. But now I decided that every morning the first task I will do is come here and post my progress.
The challenge which was started as journey to reboot,restore & refresh current life has turned more or less into war where survival is getting tougher day by day...this journey has transformed into battlefield...hope i keep saving myself from all PMO's attack on my brain...day 54
Wow! I have bundles of energy now that I can't explain. On the soccer pitch on Saturday, I run like a little kid with limitless energy and didn't tire. The other guys looked at me in utter amazement. Even though I was sore on Sunday, I feel refreshed this morning. Somehow my body has recovered to say about 90%. I feel great.
Posting here every day has been the key to keeping me focused. In the past 1-1/2 years, though I have not been 100% porn free the whole time, there were only a handful of days I didn't keep my PMO commitment, which did not seem to destroy the momentum I built from the long streaks where I kept the commitment. I've had some surprising breakthroughs and life has been moving forward.
The Twelfth Not a great day today after a disappointing date yesterday. I have had very high urges today to escape into the pornland fantasy but I must fight this battle and win
Sometimes people with 50+ days having similar symptoms to week one may be because of how far their personal addiction/problems go. But, I agree it can be discouraging. I can speak on myself personally, I still had issues after 50 days, but much less than 1-2 weeks. Progress does seem like its very nonlinear at times. Life's natural up and downs?