Day 69 (Season IV) Sometimes you create self-suffering, that's when you can practise presence. It's hard, but can be rewarding.
Day 24/90 The realisation that I have a fortnight's leave is making things a little uneasy for me. I spent part of the day with friends, but the boredom that afflicts me during such times is something I used to solve with a bit of browse-and-spank. I don't take leave normally because I'm a workaholic (even though I hate my job), and the fact that I've given up my 'hobby' has worried about how I'll spend my time besides the gym, cleaning the house and doing the usual. Still strong, though - diverting thoughts dismissed quickly. Not a hard day, but I can see how it could have been much harder. (pun partially intended)
So it's been 2 weeks since my afternoon relapse. I've had very little urge to PMO. On the occasion that it occurs to me to go that route, it's when I'm at my computer and have some time to relax and recharge. Today I was feeling the impulse a little and went on nofap.com instead. I like my life better without PMO. The fact that I'm not carrying around a secret, hidden life that I'm ashamed of makes for a happier existence.
