Day 93 Very hard time for me, at first had today a nightmare, woke a few times up in middle of the night/ in the early morning. After the nightmare a wet dream, then I dreamed also something... well the started very strange (that`s why I am the whole day tired and exhausted). I really need to learn more for school, but I still got no motivation for this. High demands, and even if I try I still suck... Also I`m in a bad/sad mood and can`t explain it. Lonliness? Or maybe that I want to do something new, for example playing in a band! Damn I wish I had a few friends with whom I can do this, but most of them aren`t interested/can`t play an instrument...
brothers, i relapsed . all that peaking on previous days got me obsessed and today i was home sick and alone. one thing lead to another... oh well, but 55 days, new record. however i really feel i´m much different that in previous months, i´m not gonna go for the 90 days again cause i feel i´m gonna be free before that. i feel much more energy, confidence, very little anxiety around woman, and less sex obsessed. so finally all those months of hard work showed good results. i´m gonna set my counter to "private goals" and only stop counting when i feel i´m free from the addiction = no desire to pmo and good overall health. also i´m gonna create two counters. one with my overall journey in NoFap (clean days and relapse days) and another counter with the consecutive days, the present one. so today marks the 220 day in my nofap journey (205 days clean/15 days in pmo) 0 days consecutive sorry to let you down brothers, but don´t be sad. i feel i´m closer than ever and i will continue posting here. let´s do this. One for all, all for one.
Where did you get that brilliant idea of counting total days and consecutive days. LOL Way to go brother, I am with you on this one. Let's do it together!
Quitting to this isn't easy but all good things comes with hard work. Stand up with more energy.. Check this Quote: If you're walking through hell, keep walking. Winston Churchill.
Day 6 .. after relapsing 3 times last week , it seems to be good to rise up again ..but lots of strong urges ...stronger than everything . But I don't have to surrender to them ..I will fight them and win Best of luck for this day guys
Success comes with failures. Let this relapse situation be a lesson for your future. One more slipping situation acknowledged by you. You are wiser than before. I want to tell you one point which you may have already acknowledged or not. That's.... Don't be too much excited about the nofap life. Just do the nofap life everyday very very normally don't put the nofap thoughts on pedestal Because if you were excited of nofap life, it will be good as long as you are on stable or increasing graph. But when you come to declain graph like the situation you faced now ie sick and alone.,the excitement you had all the days can't be justified by your reward part brain for that particular bad day. So it will lead to relapse. Everyday keep moving forward with very very normal excitement such that it won't effect your brain while in your negative days. I hope I could convey you what I wanted to say. Cheers to you. Edit: And congratulations upon your 55day streak. 55days is a sign that you are able to take control of yourself despite your relapse. Get a treat. Today Get your dopamine from icecreams, movies,...etc .rather than from another relapse immediately. Don't think of no pmo. Think of enjoying through clean entertainment. It will set right back on the track. The key here is "Think of clean life rather than no-pmo" I hope you understood.
relapsed. Still don't have the motivation and wasn't trying to prevent it. And summer is coming up which will be the hardest. I need to find something to do. Right now I am just doing random stuff and I guess I really don't need to do it. I kinda want to buy a gpu to game but then I am wasting my time. I guess I could make some friends or something lol. Kinda need to work on life skills like not procrastination. And doing homework even when it's not checked. I'll think a little.